Confessions of an Idllyic Mind

Hi,

Sorries not been updating this thing for many days now. Been very boggled. Ever played that game Boggle? To those unfamilliar with it. Its a plastic box with many dices in it each side of the dice has alphabets on it. So the objective is to shake the hell out of that box and then form words with tgose shaken up alphabets. So my life has been pretty much like that. When i'm beginning to form letters, the box gets shaken again. When i think i have my life all in order, guess what, i got it all wrong. Seriuosly, i dont know what to do with it. Just feel like emptying the box. Life is a big waiting game isnt it. Waiting to come out from your mother's womb, waiting to get your first tooth, waiting to be picked up by your parents, waiting for an opportunity to talk to that girl/boy in kindygarden, waiting for that praise from your parents, waiting for your crush to respond to you, waiting for graduation, waiting for that job opportunity, waiting for the promotion, waiting to get a partner, marriage, then waiting for your child to call u mama/dada for the 1st time, then waiting to watch them grow up, give u a grand child and then you wait to die. I've been waiting, waiting and waiting for SO long now. Wings pointed heavenwards but then clearance for flight has not been permitted for so long. How much more do i have to wait? How much more time do i have on this earth? I dont have the answers but i sure wish i do.

I prefer to spend my days in silence these days. I feel like i have not been heard many a times. Then whats the point even talking. ALways been cut short. I'm not complaining though. I always have nothing knowlegeable to say. Have always had my wits and laughter to fall back on. Thats about it folks. All the nutrients went to me boobs i guess.

So just a little update, been to singapore in the 17th till the 19th, now m back in KL. Not really going anywhere. Just contempt being home with my family in oug. Staying to myself basically. Miss a bit of the life i have in Perth. Especially Zion. Oh well. But nothing is better than home. Being less sick would be a bonus though.

Oh well thats all i have to say. Shall return to my solitude now.

Sweet sweet silence ...