Confessions of an Idllyic Mind

HEY EVERYBODY!

Just a short update on myself because didnt pay enough for the uni parking ticket. And the reason why as to i have to pay for a parking is because i ... HAVE A CAR ! ! ! Well technically it isnt mine. My boss went back to Indonesia and left me and Sherli to be the legal guardian of her PRADO CRUISER. So yes yes we are proud parents. And the reason why i have to come to uni is because i dont have an internet connection in my house anymore!!! ARGHHHH .. Hence the rude title. My china housemate left suddenly (moved) without telling us. And that stinky landlord of ours didnt informed us either. So we came home to no internet. Boo hoooooo! Its like a bad divorce. Your partner just leaves with the kids, the family car and the family dog. And left you with nothing. So that is the tale of my jerky housemate from Henan mainland china.

That is all the update that i have for now. Results will be released today at 12 am. Please pray for me. But i believe in miracles and that God will pull me through no matter what.

So, appreciate your internet connections people!

*Love love*

If only what the old gypsy lady at the fair could accurately do what she does .. If only your life could be told by looking through a glass ball in front of you. I certainly wish i could do that. My Japanese punching bag, Hiro leaves today, bound for Japan. I may not ever get to meet him again. I dont know what to feel right now. People are just leaving and dissapearing just when i'm getting to know them better. Yeah friends come and go but why cant they stay? Racheal also left to go home to Malaysia couple of days ago. Her leaving was like a wake up call to me. What am i doing? What am i going to do? I suddenly dont know anymore. I thought i had it all figured out. I could never be so wrong ...

"Death by choclate" - Chocolate cake & Ice Mocha

Me, Janice & Hiro

Playing with sephia mode

Took a walk down to the Bell Towers after cake. Wonder when will i ever get to see Hiro again. Maybe i would make it to Japan next year. Maybe .. Maybe .. Maybe ..

Que' Sera Sera

This is Freaking Funny .. Enjoy!!!

Heys,

Just some pictures that I havent had the time to post because of exam constraints. These are taken during the Church Together event. What happens in all churches in the whole of Perth gathers together in this open air garden (Supreme Court Gardens) and we worship, praise, listen to the word and pray together for the city of Perth and for Australia. This year's CT was so cool, we had a very good preacher, J John (a very comical British indian) and we had HILLSONGS UNITED to lead the ending praise and worship WOO HOO! It was so fun! If heaven is like this i would wanna die now. Take me Lord TAKE ME!! Left feeling spiritually charged. There was something that J John said about people trying to pinpoint the logicality of being a Christian and the logicality of the bible. So he asked them this

Me and Sherli before the event started

Wan Ming and his sleeping buddha pose. Notice our landlord's bed sheet. We used it as a picnic cloth. haha

The very comical J John

Hi bloggie ...

Finally i'm penning since my dreadful exams .. Just finished my final finalest paper today. And sadly to say i didnt do good at all. AT ALL. It's all up to God now. Gonna pray hard that i can manage to scrape through. Was devastated. After the exam i just ran out, hid in a corner, put on my sunnies and cried my heart out. Called my mom for comfort and that made me cry even more. To emphasize how the paper was, i cried all the way home even in the bus. Oh well. Didnt calm my nerves but i've decided to surrender all to God now. Only He can help me now. Let's just leave that as that.

Just came out of the tub. Had myself a about 1 hour bath just now. Took a soak in the tub with my mp3 player blasted out loud and with my Glamour magazine. Ahhh ... Life ... I needed some pampering after what i went through today. Sorry no pictures of my x-rated soak in the tub. keke. As i was soaking in the tub i was just thinking back on the series of events that lead me here. To Perth. You know what, things just dont happen by chance. How on earth did i make the decision to go to metropolitan college? How on earth did i manage to come to Perth even? I never never thought i would be living out on my own, in a foreign country, living with a landlord from Macedonia and soaking in his tub now even. It's just so weird that this is all happening. I always thought i would be stuck in malaysia, maybe study in UTAR, stay at home till i'm old enough to marry to move out. But i'm actually making grown up decisions for myself now. Making decisions about my PR, finally taking hold of my own spiritual life. That was a big step. But there is still so much ambiguity having over my head right now. It's weighing against my chest like some overgrown tumor permanently stuck on my back. Sometimes i just dont know what i want. Maybe i do but the road to achieve looks impossible and i'm just too afraid to attempt it even. Just praying for a way out. There would be one I'm sure. That day someone in church was saying that the blessings that God has instore for us are there already. We just have to wait for it to fall into place.

I'm hoping that my life
would fall into place now.

Without me falling apart first ...

The fantastic gifts from me amigos - Tshirt: Cell - Ang pow: Mags - Body Shop scent - Wan Ming - Nine West bag - Racheal, Vinson, Janice, Hiro


The beautiful charm bracelet from my darling Sherli


The gorgeous me in Cottlesloe Beach



Steamboat Pictures - All the food! *drools* - Also inserted are some pics taken due to partial typsiness. Great times .... Thanks for the great times guys!

Alas I'm 22 ...

I had the most wonderful birthday celebration ever. I'm just really so blessed to know that my existence here is not by accident. Everything is preplanned so perfectly. It took 22 years for a perfect birthday to happen. Too good to be true really. I have to thank all my darling darling friends for this. I'm still reliving the shock of my birthday surprise. My cell group darlings were mean mean mean! What a nasty trick turn great guys! Salute you guys man. All should get an individual Oscar. The biggest Oscar ought to go to Mags. Thanks for being the Ultimate Mastermind. Keke. They surprised me with a eaten + Woolies bought chocolate cake when i appeared for cell. To top it off they restricted me form opening my gift. I was really thinking that it would be a lingerie set or something. AFter cell they didnt even let me take home my present! Was in Kath's car when i thought i was going home. But she said she needed to go to uni first together with Sherli. Was quietly thinking "where got ppl go to uni so late wan?" I didnt doubt Kath but Sherli going to uni that late was weird. Keke. Little did i know that i was inching closer n closer into their perfect trap. Cis. Kath said she needed to change first. So was chlling in her room and yakking on the phone with Rach when the lights went off and when i turned back the whole lot of them was there with a beautiful birthday cake (not eaten). I was speechless ... Got great gifts. The cell got me an Astro boy tshirt which i went nutz over a few weeks ago (Thank you for remembering Sherli darling!). Wan Ming got me a large bottle of White Musk from Body Shop. Thanks!! Thanks Mags for your ang pow. SO touched. *sniff sniff* Rach, Hiro, Jan and Vinson got me the Nine West bag i wantde sooo much. Thank u sooo much!! And finally when i finally plop to bed that nite my head rested some something hard. When i inspected me pillow there was a gift from my darling sherli inside. A chunky silver bracelet which is so me. Thank u thank u! My bro also gave me a present in the form of some mellow songs from Oasis. Sent neatly to me email inserted with it was a lame birthday song. Kaka. Thanks bro!

The next day was equally as good. Celebrated again with my lovely group members (hiro, jan, rach) and sherli. Took a bus to Cottlesloe Beach and had a steamboat dinner in Hiro's place. It was such a gorgeous day for the beach. The not so good thing was Hiro's LOUD singing in the bus. It wouldnt be so bad if it was hit songs but he sang "a whole new world" and some mary poppins songs. People were looking and a old man couldnt stop staring at Hiro. PAI SEH man!! But it was hilarious!!! I bought my first Tankini!!!!!! My very first swim suit y'all!! Only got the top. My top kept slipping but that didnt stop me from having fun. Nearly drowned a few times thanks to the strong currents. And had a bad leg cramp which is causing me to limp slightly now. I saw my first naked woman at the shower there too. A day full of firsts. SHe just took off her swimsuit and showered herself. Mind you the showers didnt have doors. Had a full view of her unshaven cha cha. Oh man. Totally unnecessary. Oh well moving on. We gathered again at nite for dinner. Delicious man the steamboat. Ate so much. Drank a lot too *hick*. Thank you Rach, Vinson, Hiro, Janice and sherli for making my day a glorious one!!!!!!!!!!!

Only regret? That my Malaysian buddies wasn't here to celebrate with me.

Sorries this is a continuation from my previous post Kampai! Yamseng! Cheers!. Was not happy that all the pictures couldnt be uploaded so am doing so here. Keke. Sorry m a Camera-Ho.

Its too beautiful for words ... *sniffles*

Hey hey hey ...

Dedicate this post to my 3 lurvely Strategic Management 313 group members. It was record breaking this group. No we didnt top the university grades. It was for me the fastest group formed, the most fun i've had, everybody put in effort, and we were not the Assignment Based Friends kinda thing. But that was partially caused i knew Janice and Rach from metro kaka. But we Malaysianised Hiro which was good. He seem to be influenced with the La-ism culture. Will miss him after he returns to Japan.

Today we had the final part of our assignment launched. The presentation of our Formula 1 poster. We spent 36 aud printing the darn thing. I thought it was fantabulous. But we didnt win the poster contest but Whatever! It was grrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeaaaat!!! (`ala Keloggs Tiger style). As a group we had our ups and downs. Ups - Picnic, Aganzi special cake + coffee and Tuesday curry and rice specials. Downs - Staying late late late in uni to finish up the ass'ment. There were frustrations. But that was mainly Hiro's issue with a constant need to feed and his blurness. In the end it was good team effort guys!

Lovies u all!

*Note: Why on earth am i talking like a freaking bimbo? ~ Like like how on earth do they like put the chocolate chip in the like cookie guys? *twirling hair* Like the cookie is hard and all. And the chip is like all soft like it seems Impossible! The cookie man is SOO smart! *said with a squeek* ~ But do forgive me. I'm just tired. Your regular B**ch will return after in a day or two.

Snappy snappy b4 our presentation.

The beautiful girls ....

The must have Charlie's Angels shot .... Though it seems more like the three relunctant girls forced to visit their aging 80 yr old grandpa or else we will be cut off from his will shot ...

Knowing me, there were loads more shots. Unfortunately Blogspot's inefficient photo system has prohibited me from loading anymore. Ciseth .....

It's my very first purchase from Ebay y'all. Well actually Sherli was the buyer but that's cause i don't have an account with ebay. If i register in with my credit card my dad's gonna kill me. So what did i bought? Nothing big really. Only costs 8 AUD with postage fees included. Bought a Little Black Silicone Dress for my PSP. Fit like a charm. Maybe will get a game or two from there too. Gotta to some active searching. Will never go for bags, shoes or clothes though. Here are some pics of the lovely "dress".

Am at the point of my life where everything is so uncertain. Instead of love, ambiguity is in the air. Yesterday Mags asked a very good question. So what are your plans? There were deathly silence for a moment. Followed by a "I dont know" answer. I wish i could Google "what are my plans?", then a whole list of options and directions that i could follow would pop up. Where do i see myself doing 5 years from now? I dont know man. I dont even know what m i gonna do tomorrow. Hence i have crafted a seemingly impossible dream plan.

1) Graduate with a Bachelor of Commerce degree, majoring in International Business.

2) Immediately get job offers.

3) Work in a company that involves international export and trading/internationally based retail company.

4) Meet a GODLY man in one of my many business travels abroad.

5) The Godly man has to be:
a. GODLY
b. Tall (preferably 5ft 9' and above)
c. Preferably asian. Saves the problem of me trying to explain things to my family.
d. Humorous and not afraid to laugh out loud. (not afraid to cry as well)
e. Big. Not so fat but just big built.
f. Adore me!
g. Gets along fine with my gurl frens.
h. Be my help/guide/partner/best buddy/#1 fan, for as long as i live.
g. Someone that will hold my hand till we're both white haired, balding, toothless.
h. Someone that will take me for long rides without planning ahead where we will be going.

6) After going out for 2 yrs. Decides to get engaged.

7) Have a lawn wedding after 1 yr of being engaged. I want a massive chocolate wedding cake
with creme & raspberries in between the layers and the outer layer of the cake covered with fresh cherries and white chocolate gratings.

8) Build our careers together. Saving enough money to buy a piece of land in the suburbs by the beach as our vacation + retirement haven.

9) Maybe have one child. Wanna be a yummy mummy. Dont expect me to sit home to cook and clean.

10) Get a dog and name him Sammy.

That's as far as i wanna go. Sounds perfect isnt it? For now i can only accomplish #1. Hopefully i can. In need of guidance. As the days go by i'm slowly starting to panic. What m i gonna do? what m i gonna do? For once i'm actually wishing to prolong my studying years. I'm afraid to finish studying then what next? Climb the career ladders? But m afraid heights ... Sighs ... Lord show me the way ...

Went to the hospital today. No biggie really. Had a swollen right ankle and sharp pains. My paranoid thoughts of a gangrene build-up causing the doc to have to saw off my whole foot drove me to the hospital. The walk there is enough to cause a gangrene build-up really. But atleast i know where it is now. I'll take a bus next time. Took the little old lady's advice at the Perth City info center's advice to walk. "You can take a bus there. But you girls can walk. It's only 10 mins." Eh lady have u seen my foot? ask me to walk. SO anyways, walked there with Sherli. (THANK U!) And on the way there i spotted my first gay couple!! When i spotted them by brain went OMG OMG OMG OMG!! GAY GAY GAY GAY GAY!! EWWWWWW!!! They both had FINE physique oo la la. But they're gay. They were holding hands and totally oblivious to the stares that they were getting.

Okay enough about the gay couple. Back to moi. So went to the ER, got my procedures sorted out. It was a public hospital ok. But it was so private! Like the doctors are so kind, they look you in the eye and tell you a whole bunch of stuff about whats going on with you that you dont understand but just nod to. Got like 4 - 5 xrays done of me foot. In the end results came out saying that my foot is just fine. Torn some ligamens around that area. Gonna still be swelling and hurting for the next 1 week or so. Got a support band for the foot. So no cause for alarm.

That's all for today. Have to work tomorrow. So excited about our cell movie nite tomorrow and the little sleepover at Mag's place! We gonna be watching Dark Water. Then i will have to return to the hospital again but to the Phsycho Ward this time. Will have to take sleeping pills just to be able to sleep after the movie. But we're watching a comedy after that. Austin Powers - Goldmember! YAY! So will be posting about that soon...

TATA

Aloha,

Everything was delish. This is what i like about this country. Acting like a total idiot and fool in the park doesn't draw a large crowd around you pointing fingers and whispering about your upbringing. And you can actually lie down on the grass and take a short nap .In Malaysia your whole back would be wet, and you would probably end up getting mugged or raped. Felt completely free from the burdens of my uni work and assignments today. Its just such a beautiful day! After the picnic and much frolicking in the sun, we took a bus to the city (free u know!). I got pulled into Hiro's impromptu decision to watch a movie. A scary one indeed.

Watched Monster House. It was really good to my surprise eventhough the characters were quite ugly. The story line was good and some scenes were quite thrilling. After the movie me, hiro and janice went for bubble tea in Utopia. Yummy yums ...

Now am exhausted, with a swollen foot thanks to the jumping around that i did which eventually made me land on the side of my foot. Gonne give myself a treat by going to bed early tonight. Have to work tomorrow morn sighs. I wish everyday could be like this one.

"Thank you Lord for giving me such a wonderful day!!"

Heres part 2 of the pics. ENJOY!!

ZION PRAISE HARVEST - SEARCH FOR A STAR 2006

P/s: There is a 2nd part to the pics due to the restrictions that blogspot has on my pics uploading.

My Zion Praise Harvest Family

I've posted several ridiculous news articles prior to this one but i think this is seriously the icing on the cake. This piece of news reminds me of what Pastor Jeff once said when he came to speak in our church. He said that sometimes our hearts meant well but our actions prove otherwise. The heart is correct but the brain (way of trying to convey your kind heartedness) is wrong.

Got this article from The Star online. Enjoy ...

Widower offers to marry ageing prostitutes
By R.S.N. MURALI

KUALA TERENGGANU: “I am willing to marry them.” This is the offer by a Kuantan widower to 10 ageing prostitutes here, one of whom is a great grandmother.

The 54-year-old man said he was prepared to take three or more of the prostitutes as his wives as he felt pity for them and wanted them to stop their flesh trade.

The man had written to several government agencies here expressing his intention after reading about the women's plight in a Malay tabloid.
The prostitutes from Kampung Tiong here, most of whom were in their mid 50s, were reported to be facing hard times due to dwindling “costumers” as many were already grandmothers.
The report had said the women were soliciting for “clients” from two houses in the town centre. They had been in the flesh trade for over two decades.
The widower expressed loneliness as his wife had passed away for sometime now and said he did not mind marrying the women.
He wanted them to give up their undesirable activities as they were all growing older and needed someone to care for them.
“I don’t care who they were previously. But if I marry them, they should be loyal to me alone and take good care of me as their husband,” he stressed.
The man pledged to provide shelter, food and clothing to the women and treat them equally if they were willing to be his companions.
“They can look after my welfare and cook for me. We can all live happily ever after,” he added.

State Islam Hadhari and Welfare Committee chairman Datuk Rosal Wahid said they had no objection if the man was sincere in his proposal.
“No one can stop him if he does not mind the women's past and is willing to accept them,” he said yesterday.
Rosal added that the state government had on numerous occasions attempted to counsel these women, hoping that they would stop their activities but to no avail.
“My only word of advice is that the man should be sincere in his offer. He should, however, not be overzealous and just marry one woman first.”


HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I'm in the computer lab as i'm writing this and i just cant help laughing at this piece of junk news. I'm not trying to be mean. I'm sure this man meant well by providing for these women. Someone has to take care of them. Hey! Why not him? HEllo!!!! You could provide for them by either building them a shelter or giving them donations isnt it? No no.. Marry them all, keep them in the small/medium sized house of yours, make them fight to their death for your attention/company, and make them cook and clean after you????????? Them living happily ever after??? What he thinks that marrying all of these ladies all at once is a fairytale come true? He thinks this is the modern tale of a Prince Charming (?) rescuing the damselSS in distress in the village of the damned and saving them from dwindling economy is it? "Oh those damselSSS needs my help! I shall sweep THEM off THEIR feet and carry them all onboard my mighty steed and we shall ride off in the sunset towards my castle on the hill!" Use your brain use your brain!!!! You think cheap r financing all these women and they have grandchildren and children somemore. You wanna end up on one of the series of NONA discussing the woe of your family and end up asking for donations from the public???? "help me and my LARGE extended family. I had to marry them to rescue them from their flesh trading ways. Now 3 of them just agve birth and I have no money to feed all of them. Pls help by donating money, diapers etc etc ..."

Good intentions? I DONT THINK SO!!

Sorry if i sounded mean and cruel on this one. I "MEANT WELL"

You might find it strange because Amanda Liew and total silence/not making noise at all does NOT go together. I'm just the kinda person that just wont shut up. I have decided to not speak at all or to IM at all for 40 hours starting on Friday - 8pm till Sunday - 12 pm.

"Has she nothing better to do" did i hear you say? It's all for a worthy cause i assure you. My church - Zion Praise Harvest has just participated in a World Vision Australia programme called the 40 Hour Famine. Click on the blue words for more information. I dont know how to explain this but there are several ways in which you can partipate. When you sign up, you'll be given a booklet with some forms in it and receipt as well. Will have to fill in the particulars of the person donating to this cause and they will be given a receipt as well. So you can either,

1) Go without FOOD for 40 hrs - The children in places like East Timor, Mozambigue, Tanzania and Zambia go without food for more than 40 hours sometimes.

2) Go without TECHNOLOGY for 40 hrs - Needless to say most of them have not even heard of what the Internet is, what a computer looks like or will ever get the chance to lay hands on PS 2 controller.

3) Go without FURNITURE for 40 hrs - The only furniture that most of them have is probably a worn and tattered piece of mat on the barren ground.

4) Or come up with something creative

Therefore I have decided to go without TALKING for 40 hrs. Cant go without food because of the recent return of my gastritis, tech cannot cause of my darn assignments and furniture needless to say cannot. I know it may not sound reasonable or even worthwhile at all by going without words. But i've read the Blender forum and someone said something that made sense to my seemingly worthless mission. When a child has gone without food for more than 20 hours, and is so weak he/she can barely walk, will he/she go on chattering about how hungry he/she is? At some point you get so weak you wont even have the strength to utter a word.

I'm the kind of person that if given the right circumstances and the right person to talk to can go ON talking for 40 hrs. And i hope to correct my habit in the process. I tend to get very critical of a person or something if i feel that does not suit my taste. This is a better phrase for my existing condition. The not so good phrase is AKA Bad Mouthing.

I'm not gonna go on explaining that what i'm doing is going to be a reflective exercise of cleansing my inner spirit and give me a renewed attitude to ... la di da di da ... All I want to do is to help raise money for those children and their families and I want to see that the children get fed and are able to do what children are suppose to do everyday. They should be running wild and playing around and annoying their parents., not going into the fields to look for food, not going up to some mud infested waters for water supply, not having to watch their siblings die from malnutrition and starvation.

I hope there are people out there that supports my course of action. Wont be blogging for awhile now. Gotta go raise some money!

Toorah'

The headache of every employers as mentioned form the title is ofcourse the ultimate demolition duo/ the evil twins/ the dasdarty duo/ the menace sisters/ the twin tower of supreme evil/ the twin terror/ the mischief sisters .... You can call me and sherli whichever name you wish from the listed above. No employer would ever want us working in the same shift together. Ofcourse our sweet and lovely boss didnt know that to begin with. Me and my evil sista' had the night shift today. Worked from 3 - 9pm. "Worked". Our boss didnt come in during the whole time. Mua ha ha. So naturally when there is a slow stream of customers, we get bored, and when we get bored . . . . . . We get Mischievious ...... Yes yes we do ..... So what should i begin with? The karaoke session? The "Aku-ka-ra-ca" dance session? or the photo taking session? hahahha... yes we did all that. Couldnt help it. The boss's fault for putting a stereo in the shop. And so happens at that moment they played the song "La Bamba". And we just arranged this cute koala noise maker thinghies. So it was our "Cha chas" and we did the crazy dance in the shop. It was SO boring ok. We even bought bubble tea and chips. Ate n talked. We even took some of the items of the shop to fiddle with. Call us immature but having fun is suppose to make us all look younger ok. Got research to back me up so dont play play man.

Here are some evidence that we actually fooled around the shop and not worked hahaha. Oh dear. Dont tell me boss ok? Hushhhhhh .....

The crazy "Aku-ka-ra-cha" dance session. Cap - AUD6.95; Koala shakers - AUD8.95; The beautiful dancing maiden - Priceless

Massive wombat - AUD99.95

I dont even wanna know why they sell these kinda souvenirs in shops. Mine are Hooters i think. Hahaha

So as you can see I'm very blessed with such a job. And i got paid AUD50 today for working 6 hrs. Hehehe. AMEN!! God is SO GOOD!

I have even more looney pictures actually but then Blogspot wouldnt let me upload anymore. It shall be in my post i guess.

Gotta finish up my assignments now.

Toorah!

No I'm not drunk. If i were drunk you wouldnt have been able to decipher whatever i was writing. The 3 words had to do with my cell outting last night. No we didnt illegally catch fish/caught a fish and put it in a police man's pants and then got sent to prison and then a friendly guard gave us some tea to warm ourselves.

For our cell outting we went to Fremantle for fish and chips in Cicerello's. Yummmmmmmm ... They have the most amazing fish and chips ever. Pls la Malaysian places like Long John Silver, Manhattan fish market, etc, All can go bankrupt if Cicerello's decided to branch out to KL. Our lovely driver Edwin drove us there. And he just got Saved on Saturday!!!!! HIP HIP HURRAY!!! The whole journey there was filled with phone calls asking for directions. But when we finally got there it was freezing and we had to sit outside on the docks for our meal because it was full inside the retaurant. But the food was Great, company was good and the view was amazing so what the heck about the cold la. Me and Sherli shared a large Seafood Chowder - AUD14.50 and a Fish and Chips - AUD 10.50. The fish and chips were large enough to feed 2 starving girls ok. Was ready to drop dead and leave a happy corpse behind by the time i was halfway through the meal.

After dinner some people in the group decided that it was a "good" idea to visit the Fremantle Prison since we're in the area. Its like Pudu jail la. No prisoners are currently reciding there. Although there are stories of "ex-prisoners" still living there. We're not talking about flesh and blood homo sapiens ok. They say there are noises when you walk through the place. Another friend told me that once her friends went there and all the cameras in the group didnt work when they went in. I thought all was crappy balogney. I didnt mind going or not really. Greater is Christ that is in Me than he that's of the world!! AMEN!! (sorry if its wrong. my bible quotations also not that good. But the main thing i wanna say is that i have faith la ok).

So all went but all got lost except for some. Sighs. Needless to say we were lost. Took almost 15 mins just to figure out where we were going. Whenw e finally reached there, guess what? It was Closed!!! It was so funny ok. So someone suggested that we should all go for Bubble Tea instead. So all went to the city. So now you see how it all connects. Oh well.. Wasn;t all a waste. Atleast i had real good bubble tea. Went to a place called Tea Fusion in the tiny Chinatown in Northbridge. Had Honeydew Bubble Tea - AUD3.50. I usually dont order the "pearls". I go for pudding or jelly but then i just went ahead and ordered it last nite. It was totally different from those in KL! In KL the 'pearls' are very hard and chewy n hard to swallow. But the ones here was delish! Tasted a lot like honey and it was soft n gooey. Loved it! Georgement started cracking so many jokes and we just laughed and laughed. The conversation involved a lot of fake indian accents and Bollywood stories.

After that all went home full and happy.

The End

No i'm not going to write about some kinky fantasies/habits of mine eventhough judging by the title it may seem so. I have a lot of stuff to get off my chest.

These are one of the many nights that i've felt very burdened. I feel so heavy. Like I have so much upon myself. I'm just so so so so tired. Tired of thinking for other people, tired of comforting other people, tired of trying to hard to please other people, tired from putting smiles on other peoples faces ... I'm not complaining but I'm just so tired from putting others before myself. It may seem selfish for me to say so but that's how i really feel. Been wearing a mask on my face for such a long time i've forgotten how I look like or how I really should be looking like anymore. The only time i find real peace and lighter is when I'm doing my Quiet Time and when I praise and worship in church. Just now Ps Jeff spoke on finding your own talent and not envying others. That is an area i felt hardest to overcome. I;ve been trying to find my hidden talent for so long am beginning to wonder whether i have any at all. I've never been able to succeed in whatever i do. So what is my talent really? I dont know. People tell me that i'm able to make them feel at ease when they're with me and that i make them laugh. So what have i been doing? Have i been putting on a mini circus or clown act for others to laugh at and point at? Am I making myself look like the court jester so that others wont feel so? I'm really confused at this point.

I know my problems aren't major and actually it isnt even worth mentioning but i just need to get it out. Am just so overwhelmed at everything that's happening. My bestest friend ever leaving to another country and i may not see her for yrs to come, having to juggle a job and study at the same time, not knowing what my future is, etc etc etc ..... Maybe i'm just being a whiny-ninny-poo. But i cant help it. It's like the song by Alanis Morrisette - Ironic. "It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife ... It's like meeting the man of your dreams and meeting his beautiful wife .. Isn't it ironic ... " I feel so blessed but at the same time so burdened. I dont know how to explain my current situation. I just need someone that i can lie my head on and let out a loud wail and have him pat my back and say that everything will be alright. Someone to make sure I remember to eat, someone to comfort me when things go wrong, someone to take care of me. That's not too much to ask for isn't it? Maybe it is ... Maybe i feed solely off the happiness of others. I'm parasitic now aren't I.

Lord please give me rest. I'm so tired God, from meeting the expectations of others. Lord let me be myself and yet be accepted by others ... Lord be with me ... Sustain me so that i can have the strength to sustain others ...

What has happen to mankind? What have we done to live in this ever degrading society? Are people not learning manners and courtesy at home anymore? Today i was working in the morning. Oh ya i've forgotten to post that I'm now working in a souvenir shop in the Perth CBD. So everything was peaceful this morning, Linda my boss was doing the accounts, her Very adorable son, Samuel was playing with his dad, customers was doing some browsing round and I was price tagging some items. The out of no where there this woman starting shouting at the top of her lungs outside of our shop. She was riding on a scooter and she stopped right outside our shop while waving the Australian flag. She was shouting "OI! IF YOU CANT EVEN HANG THE AUSTRALIAN FLAG PROPERLY THEN DONT COME INTO THE COUNTRY!!! BLOODY BUGGERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" And she kept repeating that while waving her tiny aussie flag from her scooter. It was quite a sight. What happened was that my boss hung the aussie flag the wrong way. From inside the shop it looked fine but from the outside it was the other way round. Talk about patriotism. She is very patriotic considering she isnt the owner the country. She is just like me an immigrant to the country she calls her own. Aboriginals own Australia not you, you caucasian woman you. Correct me if i'm wrong on this. But it was clearly seen that a little kid was present in the midst of her swearing. Has she no shame in swearing in front of a kid? What is wrong with this kinda people? What kind of family have they been brought up in? I do say quite colorful words sometimes but NEVER in the presence of children or old people.

That woman ought to be ashamed of herself.

Tsk tsk tsk ....

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Beautiful view







First World Hotel







Enjoying the cool air










The reason why my previous post was entitled Around the world (almost) in 1 day

I was in the US! Just kidding. Lady Liberty in Gentings










Me in front of Genting's version of the Eiffel Tower











The Big Ben












Was at the Oscars too!











Other interesting pictures .... Have to be continued in the next post. This @$%#% thing is not letting me insert more pics inside .... to be continued ....

How on earth is it possible to visit Paris, England, USA and the Middle East in a day's time? There is only one place in Malaysia that makes that possible for "Jet Laggers" (As oppose to Jet Setters) like me. The place? Genting Highlands ofcourse. Travelled all the way up there on winding roads in an EXPRESS bus yesterday. When i say Express, its seriously express. No joke! The bus driver took about 45 minutes to get up there. The Skyway (cable car) was closed for maintainance so the bus had to take us all the way up. Thank God it was closed. The last time i was in a cable car in Langkawi i cried all the way up and all the way down. Its just a little phobia i have about falling to my death. Anyone knows what that's called then tell me la hah. The bus driver was insanely insane (hmm.. that didnt make sense). He was racing with another bus driver and cursing the other driver and other drivers on the road because of their slacky ways on the road. Pls bear in mind that the roads were VERY narrow and curvy and its going uphill. The only thing breaking my fall if the bus ever tumbles down the hill into the forests would be a branch in the middle of my crotch. That is if i survive the fall from the bus. Was praying all the way up. Thank God im alive to be writing this.

I was starved when i got up there. Havent had bfast or lunch yet. We ended up having lunch that costs nearly rm50. Nutz ok. All food are more exp in Gentings. After that we bought the Senang Lenang theme park entrance tickets. Thats entitle us to a max of 6 family rides. Family rides includes rides that the elderly and very young children can sit on. So therefore you know how "exciting" they were. But i'm not complaining. I dont wanna go up to Gentings and die there of a massive heart attack or brain hemorrhage. I still had fun. However it started raining when me and my friend was boating. Its one of those cycling boat thinghies. We barely cycled for 5 mins and it started pouring. I dont know whether it was a blessing or a curse cause i was having SO much fun but my knees nearly collapsed. It was sheer human strength that enabled us to pedal all the way back to the docks. It poured and poured after that. Only managed to go to Dinosourland during the pour. Its some park with some dino figures la. It had a suspension bridge too. A short one.
Rain + Slippery floor boards + a girl having a phobia of falling to her death = A very coaxing friend having to endure the drama of the phobic girl crying before she stepped on the bridge and all the way accross.
The phobic girl was me. And yes i did cry all the way across.

After that we went to SnowWorld but the next sessions doesnt start till the next hr. So we got our tickets (rm17) and headed to the casino. Just for a visit dont worry. I never believe that gambling is the key to all the fortunes in the world. As we entered the Encik Police asked me for my ID. I was SO flattered. I actually looked young! WOO HOO! He must not have noticed my very matured boobs. hehe. I nearly fainted in the casino. I was not the one betting but i felt my heart palpitating as the banker took away the gambler's chips. Went through all of the tables. The most Kan cheong was the Black Jack tables. It was crazy! Old uncles yelling and aunties swearing. The money being exchanged during the game nuts! I have never seen so much cash in one go in my life! Rm1000 going just like that. Its too much for simple mind to even think about. Rm1000 i can buy so many stuff! But enough about that. No wonder the suicide rates in Genting itself is high. Losing all your money at one go can be pretty distressing. I hope that branch in between the crotch method saves them when they throw themselves over the cliff. Hey losing the ability to bear children is better than losing your life right?

So after that drama we went to SnowWorld!! It was loads of fun! I havent seen snow b4 in my entire life eventhough i was in Aussie. I seen and touched snow in Gentings!! It was round -4C in that place. We were given jackets and gloves which stank and was wet but i didnt mind. Immediatly when we stepped in our breath came out in vapors. COoool! Then i dont know what took over me, Maybe its too much excitement at one go or the snow was too much for me to handle or the brain froze or its just sheer joy, I ran round the place like a little kid. I scooped up snow and threw a generous amount on my friend and i even went few rounds down the kiddies slide. But the ultimate was the giganto slide. Ok i dont know what its called but it involves a float and a massive curvy slide. It was worth the climb all the way to the top. Went sliding down the thing at high speeds. WEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

My butt was numb after that, my jeans was cold and wet, my new Puma shoes was wet and soggy but i didnt mind at all!! It took a while for my butt to thaw. Amanda very happy! We decided not to waste our tickets so we headed out to the outdoor theme park again. It was pouring even heavier. Craps. After it has subsided we went boating again. Except that i fell heavily on the way there.
Rain + Slippery floor boards + a fat girl = A very thunderous fall and a large bruise on her ass now. OUCH. It still hurts like mad now. Pls pray for my butt.

Thats about it for my adventures in Genting. Took a lot of pictures. Will dedicate a whole post on its later. Have to go for now. My mom wants to go out.

Laters!!

Began listening to the old school songs recently. Came upon this song by Brandy. Enjoyed the lyrics too.

HAVE YOU EVER
Brandy

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever,have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything up to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever,have you ever
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever,have you ever
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how
I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep

Have you ever?