Confessions of an Idllyic Mind

Heys,

I'm feeling rather pathetic now. M actually talking to my blog like as if Bloggy is a real person that can pick up chicken with chopsticks and proceed to dip it into soy sauce before savoring it. Bloggy, you are the only person that i'm capable of talking to right now. Sad isn't it. Yes yes i know. I have to go get a life. But there isn't a car that i can drive to this life place thinghy. I really dont wanna be sitting here and typing incessantly about things i shouldnt be paying so much attention to but i just cant help it. It sucks when it's this cold and you're sitting all alone and looking at your IM list and there isnt anyone you can pour your heart to without them thinking that you're totally babbling incessantly. Sighs. What if i just wanna walk away? What if i just stand up and say NO for once? What if there is an alternative solution that doesnt involve me? What if there is something that can be managed without me having to partake in the process of it? Urgh .. Sorry Bloggy. Bombarding you with questions that no one can answer. Its just me and avoidance have this thing/relationship going on right now. We apparently go very well together. Actually having a threesome with Avoidance and Procrastination. I just wanna run away right now from reality. Run away to my happy place. Where only purple unicorns exist. Oh no there cant be. Cause they will stink up the place with their purple dung. Alright ppl allowed into my happy place includes, ppl that has a sense of humor, ppl that has common sense, ppl that are not sarcastic in any manner, ppl that are genuine, ppl that does not look like super models. I'll work on the list when i'm feeling better. Just hate it when life gets so cliched. So what if u happen to want something at a point of time? It's bound to wear off isnt it? So dont make any connections with that bound to wear off thing and the current person. Dont u understand that that current person may be hurt? Hurt from not getting that thing at that point of time maybe. Trying to recover from not able to obtain that thing. Urgh.. am losing my mind. Need to focus on my assignments but my head is just going in La-di-da mode. Procratination you are a pain in the butt right now. But i still love you. What am i doing going on and on about things that majority of my blog readers (if there happen to be readers) wont understand? Am just complicated kapish? Please dont start leaving me msgs of the various psychiatric treatment that i can seek. I dont want non of that. If i were to go insane, pls rest assured that i will be a Happy insane woman. So if i'm happy then just leave me alone. Thanks for listening me out Bloggy. Really appreciated it. Want a game of checkers? I dont have the board but we can play an online game. What do you mean you have a date with Xanga. Great now m truly alone. Thanx world. Reality really bites.

Sanity sanity where art thou ...