Sighs .. I don't know this is the how many-th Sighs I've uttered today. (sorry gill, i cant help it) It's the 2nd day in a row that i find myself not being able to swallow my food (other than tit bits). Don't know why i just have the urge to cry all day. This morn calvin called when i was driving to work and there i was trying to beat the jam cause i woke up late with a wardrobe malfunction and a bad hair day, he just had to ask, "so how are things?" and the situation in my head looked like this --> a little man lit the fuse which was connected to a barrel full of gunpowder in my head, went to hide behind a massive rock and watched as the sparks slowly travel to the barrel ... *FIRE IN ZEE HOLE!* he shouted and KABOOM KABLAM! He blew up the dam in me head, causing the floodgates to be blown apart there forth unleashing a fury of unstoppable water, in this case tears. So i sat in my car, cursing other rude drivers wile crying my eyeballs out. There were shocked drivers as well as a very shocked calvin on the other line trying to comfort me. But that little man did his damage. The flooding didn't stop till the office either. Whenever i picked up the phone to call a "potential" client, i started tearing. I don't know if my mental state is slowly deteriorating. I don't know if its the old "girl problem" affecting these mood swings either.
I just don't know anymore. I did have a better latter half of the day though. When i say better i mean i can at least laugh it out for a moment and forget about my troubles for that moment. If you're reading this Leslie, thanks for the guidance + support. I really really appreciated it. Btw, yr impersonation of "eh hem hem" sucked. Hahaha. The role play drama failed to obtain an Oscar/Emmy/Tony. Talking to you really was the highlight of my day (other than my dose of Starbucks). No i'm not polishing your apples for a pay rise. It's what i truly felt.
Alright back to my stormy clouds now. Apparently I've been denied entry to the land of sunshines.
Why me why me .
Struggling for a better tomorrow .
You will never know me because you don't wear my chains . . . . . .
1 La-di-da's ...:
no worries alrites...
anytime will always be here to listen..lend u a shoulder to cry on or u want both also no probs...stand by u always n etc...u listen to me as well for the past dont know how many donkey years ald...we will fight this through together-gether kays..b strong...i know life sucks but i know u can get through this...*hugz*
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