Confessions of an Idllyic Mind

Canceled my trip to Penang yesterday. Was suppose to spend Sat and Sun with my dah-Ling and some girl frens relaxing in the sun and gorging ourselves silly. Not mentioning the dvd series that i could have bought back. But sighs. Instead canceled it to go through a therapy/couselling session with me friend later and tomorrow. I have been thinking too much. I need to let go but somehow I just can't. Really pray that this would help me loosen up. I've been really really really unhappy. I don't know how to handle stress, i don't know how to handle my own thoughts even. Feeling like I'm drowning . . . Spiraling downwards in a never ending vortex of doom. There is nothing to look forward to, I'm trying to change but somehow i keep getting cornered by my problems. Life right now is really not worth going through. If this is just the tip of the iceberg to what i might face in the future then I really don't know what else is there to live for.