Confessions of an Idllyic Mind

Glad to report that I'm feeling much better. Physically and mentally. I guess there is a time to sit and whine and think about things like fate, destiny, regrets. And there is a time to move on. This is my time of moving on. Good on me I'm finally getting some growth hormone induced into my own head. No I'm not drunk. I have this thing/love affair/friendship with self-pity that I'm really starting to loathe myself for. "Ooo poor me .. Not living the life my other friends have." "Poor me.. Still single and living with the parents." Enough is enough! Its time i said Shut Up to my own self. Shut up and Grow up! says Amanda Liew to Amanda Liew. Alright thats enough of a mental check for myself.

Ok .. What else.. Oh yeah .. Went to The Gardens on Saturday nite. I thought the place was rather poorly done up. The floors were dirty and not properly cemented. You can see the tiles are not matched. Its more like a 'hurry up and open before Raya' shopping center. Other than that the shops were pretty nice. Some unfamiliar brands which is a good thing if you ask me. I always think that our Malaysian malls are too generic. Its like like hmm a Tiramisu cake. You will definitely have to have stuff like cheese, espresso, cocoa in it. Likewise our Malaysian malls will definitely have stores like Vincci, Padini, Giordano in it. B O R I N G ! So The Gardens = Something different. I went berserk in Robbinsons. But then be cautioned. To all peanut earners out there (me) this is not the place for you (& me). I repeat. This is NOT the place for you. GO in look see look see enough. Tried on a top which I'm gonna collect a donation for later on. It was gorjas! Gorjas! But costs hell of a lot for the little amount of material used to make it. Sighs .......

Dont know why I suddenly felt like writing about the poor little girl Nurin that was brutally murdered not long ago. Cant help but to feel sad that she will nvr be able to grow up to enjoy the girlie pleasures of having a frappucino with her girl friends or going to a prom night. Whats even sadder is people are becoming sicker and sicker each day. Who in the right mind would stuff vegetables into a little girl? I just dont get it. She is just a little girl for crying out loud. For me 2 parties ought to be shot in this case. The killer (DUH) and the parents. Just got me so pissed as I was reading the papers. What kind of a parent are you to let your kid walk to a pasar malam unattended and unsupervised. "but u dont understand. we nvr knew this would happen. the pasar malam was only a short distance away." Look here. To me there are only 2 ways a child's death could not have been prevented. 1) Inborn illnesses/deformity. 2) Natural disasters (earthquakes/fires/flood). Other than that the parents or family members should take full responsibility of whatever that happens to that child. She wants to go to the psr malam? Then go with her. You need to cook because the other kids will starve? Bring them along and get them a goreng pisang while you're there. I'm sure they can withstand if the psr malam is that near your hse. You are tired/busy/paralysed and she really insists on going out? Break her legs or lock her up. Hearing her cry and throw a tantrum is much better than standing in the cold morgue looking down at the remains of your daughter which you have nurtured and cared for since she came out of your womb. Worst still .. She died in such a way. How can you ever forgive yourself? Dont say irresponsible things such as "takdir Tuhan". What a bull crap thing to say. So you took her for granted and you say takdir Tuhan??? Shame on you.

Whatever I just said was from a single, not a mother yet point of view. This i believe teaches us a lesson to never ever take what God has given you for granted ever. But those are just purely my thoughts. Whoever that disagrees with whatever I just said should just stop reading my blog and get their own one. Fair enough? Its my blog so I get to rave ok? MUA HA HA HA


Alrighty.. Feeling sleepy now.


Peace out