Confessions of an Idllyic Mind

Hmm ... Its been awhile since i've written one of my sarcasm filled, back stabbing, heart wrenching confession episodes. I've noticed that recently i have been posting like the any regular Janes formatted kinda posts. Examplar - "Hi blog, Today i went out with ah beng .. we ate char keow teow then we went for a movie. *pic of plate of greasy char keow teow inserted*. The movie was gd and so was the char keow teow. Ah beng bought me a teddy bear *pic of teddy bear included*. I like it so much. Bye bye blog." Well dont get me wrong pls. I dont have anything against bloggies like these but its just not me. And i guess these few days i have not been myself to myself. Following the robotic regime of what is expected of me without giving much thought about what i really want. Been like that for nearly 4 weeks now. Wake up at 6. Get to work 1 and a half hrs early to beat traffic. Call and meet clients. Come home for dinner and then research somemore numbers to call up then go to bed early to wake up early the next day. WHAT THE CRAP AM I DOING?? This is not me at all. Everyday i set a high jump bar like 50 meters high for myself to jump across. And when i barely make that bar i fall so low that i go into a depressive mode. Ppl tell me that i stress myself up. I didnt have any clue what they were trying to tell me. I always thought that it was what is expected outta me as a working class kuli. I really dont get my clients. Or the ppl I'm trying to call. This is a really gd product that I'm promoting. Why wont you just give me like 2 mins to explain myself? I'm willing to drive to Klang to see you and kiss your @#$ so why wont you just have the decency to return my calls or to have a brief thought about the products??! I regard this as the fall of plain common sense and common courtesy. They have truly failed themselves as human beings.

SIGHS ...........................