Confessions of an Idllyic Mind

Technology and online bookings save the day!

2010-04-08T12:43:00.003+08:00

To those closest and dearest to me, they would understand and acknowledge that I am not a technologically savvy person. I am one to go to a bank, take a number and patiently wait in line for the lady behind the automated voice-number-calling-machine to read out my designated number. Over and over again the bank teller would have to explain to me the oh so very easy procedure of banking in money using the cash deposit machine. I refuse on the pre-text that I am very careful with money going into something that I don't physically see. What if it goes missing? If there is a teller accepting the cash then there will be the pleasure of pointing out the person to blame in the event of my money going missing. Lately, only lately in the year 2010 that I've discovered the joys of doing my transactions online. I have never, I repeat, NEVER done any online purchases ever.

I was finally persuaded to make an online booking for a planned holiday recently due to the dwindling economy that is my bank account and cheaper online hotel rates. Catchy and easy to pronounce, Spotaroom.com was the reason for my conversion.Was doing the usual Google for a hotel in Melaka (yes, i like to getaway to sleepy historical towns just to leave the hustle and bustle of KL) when i stumbled upon this website. Intrigued by the promise of Low Rates and Instant Confirmation (yes, I'm also a sucker for punchy taglines), I explored further and found that the navigation was pretty simple and straight forward, best suited for a technology retard like me.

I present to you:

My 10 Easy Step Guide to a hassle free booking

Step 1: Visit www.Spotaroom.com

Step 2: Key in the destination you wish to visit in the Destination column and key in your planned check in and out dates. Click on Search

Step 3: Hey Presto! The hotels available for the dates and location appears!

Step 4: Based on your current budget, select the hotel best suited.

Step 5: Look through throughly the hotel's information which is easily accesible on www.Spotaroom.com. All the information needed about the location, room type, pricing, promotions, facilities and more information that you will ever need are available all in one spot!

Step 6: When you're happy, just click Book Now! You'll be amazed how much you can save booking online rather than calling in to the hotel to ask for their best available rates.

Step 7: Look through the pricing details. The total taxes and service charges are calculated neatly for you. Enter your contact information and credit card details to secure your booking.

Step 8: Detailed information about your booking will appear next together with contact information of the hotel you booked with. You can contact the hotel directly for additional information about your room or informing them about a late check-in or if you want to change your booking details.

Step 9: An email will be sent you. Print out that confirmation emai for safe keeps.

Step 10: PACK UP and get ready to go!

This will definately not be last time that I will be booking with Spotaroom.com. Hope to see more hotels in the site soon.

An update finally . . .

2008-04-09T23:37:00.002+08:00

Hello folks,

Gosh its been really that long since I've updated anything here. Compared to my random kadoodlings when I'm back in Perth, I'm really lacking behind. Maybe it's because life has finally settled into the comfortable stage where everything becomes mundane and utterly repetitive. Well there are some flashes of thunder here and there but nothing really major has been going on. Oh noticed the many changes of my blog template? That's cause I can never find one I wanna stick to. The old dottie dottie one was making me quite ill whenever i look at it too long. So what is there is ramble about? Work has been great. I can truly say I have not have the slightest hint of regret the since the very last step i took of AmBank (my previous employment). I just love my current. It takes a lot to say that you love your job but yeah i can proudly say i do. Sure i put in more than 12 hours into my job sometimes but i dont mind it at all. Reports? Bring it on. Articles? Bring it on. I cannot imagine not doing any of it. Have to keep my overactive mind constantly running or else i would suffer from brain-rot. Personal life? Found that special someone I can finally talk to without having to do translation work or hide what i really feel. Someone that finishes off my sentences for me and challenges me every waking moment of the day. Well he does cause me a few heartaches and headaches here and there but what to do? This kinda shit happens when you give your heart away without giving it much thought. Family? Everything is alright. Not too pleased that my bro will be flying off to Brisbane soon. Now its 2 against 1 very soon. My closest ally whenever i need to gang up on the parents will be gone soon. Sighs. But I am excited cause i might get to go too. For holiday purposes.

So thats about it. Oh went to Genting recently. Shall post some pics from the trip soon.

Off to bed now. Peace out.

NST WOOT ! ! ! ! ! ! !

2008-02-01T00:42:00.001+09:00

PUBLISHED FINALLY! ! ! ! !

Never in my wildest fantasies (trust me, they get pretty wild sometimes. Pretty wild.) would I ever imagine that something I wrote would ever be published, let alone nationally. Eventhough its a short and simple article but hey! its out baby! Praise God! It just took my breath away the second i opened the papers and I see the article there. Well it did needed editing and correction but just seeing it there gave me this sense of achievement that is totally indescribable .. Awesome Awesome ... Well it certainly gave me the confidence to continue on with the short novel I'm working on.

To those who missed it, the article was published on Wednesday, 30 January 2008, in the New Straits Times under Streets ..

An Auspicious Spring

I AM SO UBER EXCITED ! ! ! ! !

I'm framing that article up. Well it wont be the last. I'm confident there will be more to come!

HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY

Melodramatic post . . .

2008-01-27T23:50:00.001+09:00

Sometimes there is so much that a song can tell you. If one is an avid reader of my blog one would know that I dont do much of poetry but i really dig lyrics. I just wish i can find someone that appreciates it as much as i do. I just found this song from Billy Joel and I realize that its 100% applicable to my life. I'm trying really trying so hard to carve a slice of the pie of life for myself in this world i have no idea what its leading me to. But i can say I am finally happy right now. My job is actually bringing me somewhere. I am working my ass off but I am happy. I work 14 hours sometimes but hey I am happy. To that person out there that is waiting for me to fall on my ass so that the person can laugh and poke fun at me and say tah i made a wrong choice and that I will regret my actions, listen and listen to me good, I am happy and i sleep like a baby not only at night but in my weekend afternoon naps as well. I am at peace and I am still trying to succeed. Atleast I am young and I am not afraid to fail.

During times like these I wish my ex is by my side now. I rarely or never do talk about him in my blog but he is the one person i should have appreciated more. He was always there to hold me and stroke my hair and tell me that things will be alright eventhough i soak his expensive shirts with tears and nose goo. Yeah i still hate his guts for dumping me but I wish he was here now. Oh well .. its time to toughen up, look up for charge forward to face the future! Things will be alright. It will be.

Vienna
Billy Joel

Slow down, you crazy child
you're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart, tell me
Why are you still so afraid?

Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You'd better cool it off before you burn it out
You've got so much to do and
Only so many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told..
That you can get what you want or you get old
You're gonna kick off before you even
Get halfway through
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight
Tonight,...
Too bad but it's the life you lead
you're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong, you know
You can't always see when you're right. you're right

You've got your passion, you've got your pride
but don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you crazy child
and take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile
it's all right, you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize,..Vienna waits for you?
And you know that when the truth is told
that you can get what you want or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get half through
Why don't you realize,. Vienna waits for you
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

WOO HOOOOOOOO

2008-01-13T15:05:00.000+09:00

I can finally strike off one item from my resolution list!!! It came as such a surprise so much so I'm still in a daze now. I can just stare at it and I know I'm suppose to charge it now but I just enjoy looking at it so much i can't bring myself to leave it upstairs charging while I'm downstairs. I need to see it, gaze upon it's wondrous features, savor on its texture, mull over its wonderfulness, the monstrosity of its splendour, the gloriousness of its presence .... I can go on and on. I finally got myself a camera!! The one from Sony that the ex-bf got me has gone kaput. So new camera new beginnings right? I guess its the independence that hit me really hard. I'm just so blessed with the ability to get things on me own now. The money came entirely out of my salary and Not partially subsidized from daddy. Arghhhh ... ITS GORGEOUS! I can't wait to snap snap snap snap SNAP with it. This coming weekend would be perfect cause I'm going off on a team building trip with my colleagues. Hurray!

Check out my baby. Canon Ixus 75

Isn't she lovely~ Isn't she wonderful ......

Super Duper Uber Excited

2008-01-05T23:16:00.000+09:00

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Guess who's coming to town in February? Guess who? Guess Who Guess whoooooooo?????!

JAY CHOU

I AM SO GETTING MY ASS THERE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

*faints*

Of the old and new . . .

2008-01-05T20:29:00.000+09:00

Its 2008! Its frightening how the year just jumps and takes a leap on me. Its just overwhelming to think that I'm not freezing my ass off in a koala and ill mannered aboriginals native country anymore. No more being afraid to put my bare ass on the toilet seat in winter, no more swatting flies in summer, no more having to put up with Gloria Jeans, no more having to gage what my smelly+old+loud Macedonian landlord has to say, no more eating shanghai noodles with miso soup and cabbage for dinner, no more getting rid of books to get to bed/getting rid of books to get out of bed/getting rid of books to sit on my chair/getting rid of books from table to put the laptop during exam period, no more shaking the antique washing machine to get the dryer to start spinning, and the best bit, no more moths in spring!!!!! Yeah life out of Perth is that good. But i do miss that place somehow. Did stuff there that I would never ever forget or do again. Had my hair dyed there for the very first time (thanks sherli) and many more.. Ahhh ... memories ... Just wanna take this time to thank everyone in my 2007 life that made the year great for me.

A lot happened in the span of a year. I lost an uncle. Lost some friendship that i will never try to rekindle again. Quit a job. Lost total respect for someone that i think is a old pervert now. Gained a stronger bond with my girlies. Gained more self confidence. Bought a car. Bought my own wardrobe. Joined a MNC and having a job that is fulfilling, achieving career goals set out for myself and still bring true to myself. Just wanna thank God for continuously blessing me even though i dont deserve it at times. I know my stay here on earth is just a temporary visit but i want to make the most out of it while i'm here. Here are some things i want to atleast start achieving for the year of 2008 and beyond.

Buy a camera. Looking at Canon Ixus. Can i get some feedback from camera savvy people pls?
Gain more experience from work.
Travel to 2 major cities in the world. Shanghai & Dubai, here i come!!!!! (to be accomplished within a few yrs span)
Lose 5 kgs (to be accomplished ASAP!! Gonna be living on lettuce and Diet Coke). Gotta lose enough to wear my very first bikini!
Build up my faith level.
Write a short story. So excited! Gonna start work on it soon even though i have no clue what to write. But i'm gonna start!!
Meet someone that will take care of me (to be accomplished when the right one comes along)
Start a concrete financial/investment plan.

There is more to the list actually. But this will do for now. Alrighty now. I have lotsa catching up to do if I want to accomplish everything on the list.

Wish me luck and off i go!

Peace out

Battered . . .

2007-12-22T20:49:00.000+09:00

Well updating finally when there is no one else around to listen to me. I have to turn back to the one place i can focus my thoughts on. So whats new? Nothing much really. Work is work. Atleast now i dont dread it and i can be myself. I can be honest to myself and just throw in all i have into my work. Its sad that i seek solstice in my work rather than other things that are more important in my life. I cannot explain the peace and calm that i get when i get in at work at 7.30 am. And the whirling of the computer actually sounds real good when nobody else is there to listen to you. I closed one chapter in my life today that i will never never open again. Let me rephrase that. Its more like someone else closed the chapter for me without any telltale signs of closure. I dont know what it is with emotions and how it affects every facet of what you're doing. How tired you feel even when you didnt do anything at all. How hungry you are but your esophagus just wont allow food to pass through. Its like someone places a game of cricket on my heart. Bruised and whacked around so many times i dont think it looks like a heart now. More like a bashed up piece of meat, tenderized and ready for the oven. Except that no one would appreciate the seasoning and bashing it took when its served to dine. Its funny when i have a dictionary full of advice for people i love and care about but when its time to take care of me i'm lost for words. Its also funny that i have bucket load of tears to shed but i dont have the guts to open up for counseling. What is my problem? I cant help but to be stepped all over. Its sickening when you put in all you can to make something work but it just falls apart like a sunken ship.

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes crying and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "make it go away!"
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

Now i know why most people choose to end their life on Christmas day. One day so significant but no one to pass the day with. How very sad

Bitchin' Good Time!!!

2007-12-03T22:30:00.000+09:00

Venue: Port Dickson - Glory Beach Resort
Date: 1 December 2007 - 2 December 2007

Attendees:

Empress Bitch (Me)
Americano Bitch (Rhubs)
Fancy Bitch (Eugenie)
Calamari Bitch (Geral)
Amne Bitch (Hui Li)
Kontang No More (KNM) Bitch (Vthya)
Whatever Bitch (Mae)
Baby Bitch (Heng Wai)

Activites:

Pigging out
Butt shaking
Groping
Rough housing
Slutty posing
Cam whoring
Vodka guzzling

There you go folks. The recipe to a blastingly good weekend fun. Wouldnt recommend anyone to stay in Glory Beach Resort though. Was more like staying in a low cost flat. The surroundings are much worse than Bayu Beach but the inside of our 3 room apartment was alright. Clean atleast. Fancy Bitch turned our regular living room into a club. Fully equipped with speakers n woofers. Our bartender Whatever Bitch turned our coffee table into a throne for the Grey Goose Vodka. We had an awesome slumber party. Had some light snacks (loads of junk food), refreshing drinks (vodka and an array of mixers), wholesome music (involves Timbaland, Nelly Furtado, salsa, etc ...), cute jammies (more like slutty) and some groupie shots (in bed and scantily clad). Wasnt it fun girls?? Oh hell yeah...

I cannot imagine if we spent 3 nights there. I dont think i would have any brain cells left.

Well here are some shots. Still awaiting more pics from Eugenie. Cant wait!!

Breakfast at Raju's before departing

Bitches in Bitch Mobile 1

Welcome to Port Dickson

All important feet shot

The gorgeous Chicadees

All in bed now!

Pose bitches! Pose!!

There are more pics to come to stay tuned!!!

New do ....

2007-11-11T15:35:00.000+09:00

New job, new do!

I just started a new chapter in my life. Hyperly excited!!!! Therefore this excitement led to some drastic moves couple of days ago. I gave my good old chum a snip snip. No, i didn't turn Calvin into a eunuch. The good old chum i was referring to is my crowning glory, my hair. Long gone are the sexy seductive waves which flips oh so gently with the breeze ~

Thanks to my wonderful+brilliant+has fingers from God hairstylist Samantha, I have a modern new do. I didn't want it to look too bobbish, too Victoria Beckhams, so you could imagine the type of questions and instructions that Samantha has to handle. She is such a gift I tell you. By the grace of God if the both of us live up till 80, I would still go back to her for a haircut.

So brace yourself to witness the transformation of Amanda Liew.

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Sorry for the unglamourous pic. Was in my PJs when i took this pic. And my cancer-ward inspired wall paint color isnt helping either. BUT nevertheless, i think Samantha did a fantabulous job in making me look ages younger, modern, chic, sophisticated ... Gaya, mutu, keunggulan .. LOL ...

You like?

23

2007-10-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

The day has finally arrived. I am now officially 23. Born on the 27th of October 1984, approximately 5.45 a.m., weighing 8 pounds. This year's birthday was a far cry from the birthday i had last year. Have been celebrating 2 rounds of birthdays in a row in Perth. Kinda different to be back here celebrating it for a change.

23 started with pancakes. Loads of pancakes. Me and my ChiMui gang went to Paddingtons in The Curve for a pancake fiesta. Stayed till the clock struck midnite to offciate my b'day. Thank you girls! Hope we do that more often. Has been quite some time since we gathered like that. Went for bible study this morn at Susan's. Had a lovely surprise when Jessica came in with a black forest cake for me *yummies*. Feels great to start the birthday with a prayer of blessings from both of the girls. Feeling so extremely blessed. The celebration continues with Calvin taking me out to 1U for lunch and 2nd round of bday cake (unique one) in Bakerzin. The came home for dinner with the family.

My takes on this year's b'day:

- As i mentioned earlier, its different. VERY different. But nice. Feels good to be home and to be celebrating with people that means a lot to me. Feeling the warmth and love ...

Pictures

Cake #1 - Blackforest - Courtesy of Susan & Jessica

The birthday girl making a wish

Birthday girl and Jessica

2 models and 1 siow char boh

Siow char boh #2

B'day cake #2 - Bakerzin' Tapas - Strawberry fondue, caramel & chocolate ice-cream, creme caramelle - Courtesy of Calvin Cheong

Vain char boh

B'day cake #3 - Secret Recipe - Strawberry cheesecake - Courtesy of Calvin (again)

" Thank you Lord for giving me another year to be able to enjoy the blessings and plans you have in stored for me. I believe that You love me and You know me best. Continue to be with me constantly Lord to protect and to guide me in every circumstance. I pray for Your abundant blessings to be poured upon my life and into the lives of the people I love so dearly. May You also bless with good health so that I may live long to serve You in whatever ways I can. All this i ask in Jesus's most blessed name, AMEN!!!! "

E.L.A.T.E.D ... =D

2007-10-20T22:20:00.000+08:00

I thought i would not have the guts to

My Heavenly Daddy was there for me

Finally gave it a shot

It happened

Thank you Lord for creating a pathway for me

I see the light now

I see the light

Suicidal . . .

2007-10-18T21:20:00.000+08:00

Current Mood: Super-duper-hyper-upset + annoyed

Writing this from the office. I can hardly suppress my loath and disgust towards the systems that goes on here at my current place of employment. I feel like I’m putting on a monkey/clown/dolphin/puppet show as a crowd pleaser act and when I go round collecting the coins, the people walk away. Everyday single day I’m calling mindless twits that labels themselves Financial Controllers, Group Financial Officers, Head of Finance bla bla bla .. but in actual fact, they just sit there in their offices, handing off all their twitty shits to the people directly below them. And yet I have to go .. “Ohh .. a very good morning to you Mr/Ms ___. How are you doing today? Busy day? As usual la hah .. How was your weekend? Had fun with the family? Where did you go? Ohh that sounds great!” And what I get is a few grunts of approval and some courtesy laugh. What the crap do you take me as? I’m every part as human as you are! Having that certification that qualifies you to earn more bucks than me doesn’t translate to you being more superior than I am! Qualification of a developing nation but behavior of a third world country inhabitant. Shame on you and the set of parents that brought you up!!!! You you, depleting brain cells, numskull, spineless, rude, no manners, uneducated, uncivilized baboon like twit!!!!!!!!!! I think I’ve just insulted the baboons by calling you a baboon.

ARGHHHHHHHHH …

Ok back to the company I work for. YOU OWE ME MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What else do you expect from me? I’m a fresh grad that has minimal experience but I know I’m very capable of doing far greater things than the circus/freak show that I’m performing in now. Why do you have to further squeeze me of my last remaining peanuts? The bank earns millions a year and you owe me of my 3 figures? What is the bloody logic in that? I’m down to my very last nut and yet you want to strip me bare. If I was a squirrel I will definitely die and decompose this winter cause I have no nuts in my storage hole. Instead I would have to forage the forest floors with my puny bare hands scourging for scraps dead in the middle of winter till my hands bleed or fall off from hypothermia. PATHETIC-NESS!!!!!!!!!! I spent over RM 200 at one go in a classy Japanese restaurant trying to please the stuck up people that are my clients, stuff them so full of food in hopes that they will give me favor but in return what do I get? An outgoing from my father’s bank accounts and no in coming from this stupid institution called the bank that I’m working for. And better still. The clients still acting as snooty as before towards me.

WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE?? WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT???????

Why am i betraying my own ethics and integrity to please a bunch of slimeballs which i dont want to associate myself with anyways??????????

If they could pay me for every tear that I have shed when I started till present, I would be a millionaire by now.

I know why the caged bird sings

2007-10-15T21:47:00.000+08:00

A free bird leaps on the back
Of the wind and floats downstream
Till the current ends and dips his wing
In the orange suns rays
And dares to claim the sky.

But a BIRD that stalks down his narrow cage
Can seldom see through his bars of rage
His wings are clipped and his feet are tied
So he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
Of things unknown but longed for still
And his tune is heard on the distant hill for
The caged bird sings of freedom.

The free bird thinks of another breeze
And the trade winds soft through
The sighing trees
And the fat worms waiting on a dawn-bright
Lawn and he names the sky his own.

But a caged BIRD stands on the grave of dreams
His shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
His wings are clipped and his feet are tied
So he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings with
A fearful trill of things unknown
But longed for still and his
Tune is heard on the distant hill
For the caged bird sings of freedom.

Packed weekend . . .

2007-10-14T20:21:00.000+08:00

Had a good start to the Hari Raya weekend last Friday. Sherry "SO CUTEEEEEEEEEE" invited half of the AmInvestments crew to her church song+drinks thinghy. Sorry didnt know what the event was called. But its was a relaxed evening, sitting on cushions, sipping tea listening to songs .. basically just chillin' (in ghetto terms). Everything was great except that it was too cold. keke. Was shivering at the end of the evening. Okay fast forward to Saturday. Daddy took me n mom shopping so I managed to squeeze one pair of Pierre Cardin proper proper but still stylish court shoes from him. Mua ha ha . . . Was on sale ok! My one pair equals to his 2 pairs. Oh well... That's the perils of having a daughter.

Fast forward again.. Its Sunday! But thank God no work tomorrow. Welt to the Pavilion just now. It is EXPENSIVE. Food? EXPENSIVE. Clothes? EXPENSIVE. But i still ate - KFC (cheapest food u'll find there). And i still shopped. Giordano Concepts (the cheaper end of the shops there). Bought myself a gorgeous black kimono wrap around top. Felt real good cause there was a good looking shop assistant giving me guidance and a HANDS ON lesson on how to tie the wrap around top. Why i need assistance? Cause i don't know how to tie la .. *Innocent eye blinking* He got his arms all over my waist *kekeke*. But actually paiseh cause my muffin top was hanging out so obvious. And I think he is gay. But overall, Pavilion was a really refreshing change to the malls we have around here. Definitely way better than The Gardens. But parking was a problem. Weekend rate is Rm 3 Per hour. But if you spend Rm 100 and above on a single receipt in any store you'll get 2 hours worth of free parking.

So that was my weekend in a nut shell. I know this is not the kinda post that I will usually post but I'm running out of topics to write about. Any ideas anyone?

Pictures galore . . .

The stage

The 3 stooges - Sherry, me and Susan

Me and Suzie (looking like she is high on something)

Sideshot of Sherry gazing lovingly at Anthony-the-boyfriend awwwww . . .

Sideshot of Andrew and his glasses

Me after we got out of the Pavilion. Young enough to get a balloon.. kekeke

Random Thoughts . . .

2007-10-01T22:16:00.000+08:00

Glad to report that I'm feeling much better. Physically and mentally. I guess there is a time to sit and whine and think about things like fate, destiny, regrets. And there is a time to move on. This is my time of moving on. Good on me I'm finally getting some growth hormone induced into my own head. No I'm not drunk. I have this thing/love affair/friendship with self-pity that I'm really starting to loathe myself for. "Ooo poor me .. Not living the life my other friends have." "Poor me.. Still single and living with the parents." Enough is enough! Its time i said Shut Up to my own self. Shut up and Grow up! says Amanda Liew to Amanda Liew. Alright thats enough of a mental check for myself.

Ok .. What else.. Oh yeah .. Went to The Gardens on Saturday nite. I thought the place was rather poorly done up. The floors were dirty and not properly cemented. You can see the tiles are not matched. Its more like a 'hurry up and open before Raya' shopping center. Other than that the shops were pretty nice. Some unfamiliar brands which is a good thing if you ask me. I always think that our Malaysian malls are too generic. Its like like hmm a Tiramisu cake. You will definitely have to have stuff like cheese, espresso, cocoa in it. Likewise our Malaysian malls will definitely have stores like Vincci, Padini, Giordano in it. B O R I N G ! So The Gardens = Something different. I went berserk in Robbinsons. But then be cautioned. To all peanut earners out there (me) this is not the place for you (& me). I repeat. This is NOT the place for you. GO in look see look see enough. Tried on a top which I'm gonna collect a donation for later on. It was gorjas! Gorjas! But costs hell of a lot for the little amount of material used to make it. Sighs .......

Dont know why I suddenly felt like writing about the poor little girl Nurin that was brutally murdered not long ago. Cant help but to feel sad that she will nvr be able to grow up to enjoy the girlie pleasures of having a frappucino with her girl friends or going to a prom night. Whats even sadder is people are becoming sicker and sicker each day. Who in the right mind would stuff vegetables into a little girl? I just dont get it. She is just a little girl for crying out loud. For me 2 parties ought to be shot in this case. The killer (DUH) and the parents. Just got me so pissed as I was reading the papers. What kind of a parent are you to let your kid walk to a pasar malam unattended and unsupervised. "but u dont understand. we nvr knew this would happen. the pasar malam was only a short distance away." Look here. To me there are only 2 ways a child's death could not have been prevented. 1) Inborn illnesses/deformity. 2) Natural disasters (earthquakes/fires/flood). Other than that the parents or family members should take full responsibility of whatever that happens to that child. She wants to go to the psr malam? Then go with her. You need to cook because the other kids will starve? Bring them along and get them a goreng pisang while you're there. I'm sure they can withstand if the psr malam is that near your hse. You are tired/busy/paralysed and she really insists on going out? Break her legs or lock her up. Hearing her cry and throw a tantrum is much better than standing in the cold morgue looking down at the remains of your daughter which you have nurtured and cared for since she came out of your womb. Worst still .. She died in such a way. How can you ever forgive yourself? Dont say irresponsible things such as "takdir Tuhan". What a bull crap thing to say. So you took her for granted and you say takdir Tuhan??? Shame on you.

Whatever I just said was from a single, not a mother yet point of view. This i believe teaches us a lesson to never ever take what God has given you for granted ever. But those are just purely my thoughts. Whoever that disagrees with whatever I just said should just stop reading my blog and get their own one. Fair enough? Its my blog so I get to rave ok? MUA HA HA HA

Alrighty.. Feeling sleepy now.

Peace out

Emotions . . .

2007-09-23T20:38:00.000+08:00

Somebody just point a fully loaded shot gun to my head now and fire away please.

Been having the blues since last week. Thank you to my new best friend, Influenza. Sounds exotic isnt it? She is apparently of spanish heritage. She's been here since Wednesday and has refused to leave. Life with her includes shivers, sudden hot to cold cold to hot bodily temperature changes, pesky phlegm filled cough spasms, clogged nose + ears, sweaty palms etc . . . Been staying home like a goody goody girl this weekend.

Began having little little panic attacks on Sat all the way till now. I dont know what I'm so afraid of. I wake up at 4.30 in the morning just sitting there thinking about what the future holds for me. Why am I leading such an ordinary life? Why am i not as smart as i know i am? Am i made for more? Am I suppose to step out of the zone that I'm currently in? Is it time to get a move on?

All I know is there is suppose to be more to life than this. Here i am sitting in front of the computer on a Sunday nite, leafing through the Internet for people to call. My dad is snickering at me for looking up meaningless companies for their telephone numbers. My more glamorous friends are most probably sipping on some chardonay, soft sounds of classical music playing on the background, wearing their Sunday's finest. . . Here I am in my PJs, my face all oily from perspiration, with a stuffed nose.

I know self pity is for losers but i just cant help sinking into this feeling now.

Current mood: Sad, sad, sad, sad, sad x 10000000000000000000

Icky Icky Sicky . . .

2007-09-20T19:47:00.000+08:00

Feeling high on cough medication. Waited for 3 hours to see the doctor today. He is still as wiry and thin as i remembered him to be. Been going to the same doctor since I'm a wee little babe. He is so meticulous and careful about everything. Go to him because of a cough and he examines you like as if you have bronchitis or TB. Go to him for a headache and he will assume and perform multiple tests on you as if you have a malignant tumor. So i ended up with cough syrup with the dosage of a 7 yr old (because he found out that I'm slightly allergic to couch medicine) and i'm still feeling very light headed after just one teaspoon. Maybe i should pour in a little of the cough syrup into my martini as a little pick me up after work. Hmmm .. Yes work IS that bad that i need cough syrup to knock me out. Ka-ka-ka .. .. *sad*

So yeah that's my drama for the week. Feeling icky with the sickies now.

Ickies with the sickies icky icky icky poooooooo . . . . What on earth is in that cough syrup man .. Whoa . . . why is there a sheep in my house?? hey its Pink! *pengsan*

Severing ties . . .

2007-09-15T22:23:00.001+08:00

That's it! I have had enough of ungrateful people. Where were you when we needed help? Where were we when you needed help? We practically threw ourselves at you. A favor isn't too much to ask for considering the things we went through for you. So you think some thank yous are enough? This is not the meaning of true friendship! Bunch of superficial hypo-crates! Haven't you heard of the phrase "A friend in need in a friend in deed?" What the hell is wrong with you people??? I have had enough of being a faker to you guys! Leave me out of the shit that is going on in your lives! I have had enough! You have just made me fling tolerance out of the window! And to another even worse category of ungrateful people, go throw yourself onto rush hour traffic! I dont wanna hear about your rainbows and seemingly perfect life! Your happiness means nothing to me anymore! You have completely back slided from your own principles. You are no longer the same person i met and respected. PHOOEY on you! Aren't you aware that you are switching your own personalities for another person? You have turned into another creature all together. I would be ashamed to be associated with you. In fact I am ashamed of myself for being such a faker. Let me tell you something. You are no longer my friend. You are just an acquaintance that i use to look up to. Do me a favor. Look yourself in the mirror. Do you like what you see? If you do then you have indeed changed. That image in the mirror that you see is not the same reflection that I see.

Why are some homo sapiens like that?? I dont get it??? I just dont.

They have truly failed themselves. You now what? I am even ashamed to be acquainted with them. To hell with our friendship.

Uncertainties . . .

2007-09-12T20:58:00.000+08:00

It's time . I know it . But what am I clinging on to ? I know deep down inside . But what am I afraid of ?

I've got tears, making tracks

I've got tears, that are afraid of the facts . . .

I like the one with the horses . . .

2007-09-02T22:32:00.000+08:00

Went for a movie today. Yes I do have a social life and yes, I do do fun stuff with my spare time.

The movie : Rush Hour 3

Genre : Action/Comedy

Verdict :

Funny
Action packed - Including some heart thumping fighting scenes on the Eiffel Tower and some wild car kung fu + chasing round the streets of Paris.
Chris Tucker's performance was much better in this sequel. Rather than being the usual clown, he actually showed some kung fu moves this time round.
Jackie Chan's performance was mediocre though. He does the usual stuff expected of him. Fight fight, joke joke, then fight again. *boring*
Story line was not bad. Baddies meant to die did die. Damsel being rescued. Predictable but yeah atleast its not a cliffhanger.
Worth every ringgit paid.

Reminder :

STAY TILL THE ENDING CREDITS FOR THE MOVIE! Hilarious "ooops" scenes included in the credits. Funny like MAD ! ! !

Memorable dialogues :

Chris : Tell the guy that his grandma is the H word.
Jackie : Err whore is spelled with a W.

.....

Jackie : Tell the guy that he is an A.W
Chris : Lee, hole is spelled with a H.

I sat in the twin seat. The seat next to me and my friend's was occupied by this malay couple and guess what were they doing while everyone was watching the movie? Oh yeah u guessed it. They were being very naughty. There were groping + kissing involved. There were loads of 18SX actions going round in their seat. My friend which were nearer to them gave me the low down after the movie. He said that there was a point where they were solidly kissing. Then he was groping eh hem .. testing whether the melons ripe or not lah. Then he pulled his zipper down. Shifted his pants lower. And she err ... go figure la ok. No not with her mouth. With her hand only. The girl had ginormous boobs i tell you! The guy was stick thin. I noticed that after the movie they were rearranging their pants. GROSS ALERT!

A little tip to horny couples out there, there are cameras in the cinema recording your every action. And you dont want GSC/TGV workers watching your little porno show after their shift is over while laughing over your man's small prick or your A cup sized tah tahs. There are cheap motels out there renting rooms for the hour. The thing is, your virginity is something valuable. Keep it for your future husband or if you cant keep it then atleast lose it to a decent looking guy that can afford to make passionate love to you in a hotel. Lose it to a guy that loves and respect you. Think of this, if he leaves you, and his friend asks, "eh, ah kow, ur ex gf r, shiok r her? hard or not to get her in the action la?" The jerk face replies - "eh no la. she damn easy lor. bring her to gsc can kau tim aredi. she paid for the ticket what. so i enjoy the "show" lor KAKAKAKA"

My conclusion of the horny couple :

She is a slut. Whats worse than a slut? A dumb slut.
He is a horny as hell, hormone induced young man, with no sense of shame, with no respect at all for his gf, has no real feelings for her, dictionary meaning for love is sex to him. He WILL leave her pretty soon. I give them 2 years at most. That would be stretching it actually. Any reason for them staying longer than that is probably cause he cant find a replacement.
They are young and stupid.
They know no consequence.
They are a couple of hypocrites. (reasons that I cannot mention here. think deeper and you would know what i'm talking about)
This is a good one - THEY ARE JUST PLAIN C>H>E>A>P.

Feel free to add to my list. Call me old fashion but I believe in what I believe in and no one, Absolutely NO ONE can ever tell me or influence me to do something as foolish and cheap as that.

Case closed.

I can R.I.P now . . .

2007-09-01T21:26:00.001+08:00

Hear Yea Hear Yea ~

I have an announcement to make. I have found pure happiness. I found that happiness in an egg tart.

It was truly the best 2 minutes of my life. Forget about sex (not that i know how that feels like *innocent girl look*). This egg tart was an experience or orgasmic proportions. Who would have guessed that the three little darlings held the secrets of the universe in one plate. If the talibans/terrorists/war ppl would just stop to stare at those darlings war would just stop immediately i tell you. Just at the sight of it your heart would be filled to the overflow with love, admiration .. A strange sense of calm and peace. Oh ~~~

One bite was enough to send me to the moon and back. The texture. Oh the texture! The chef must be a glorious creation of a man to be able to create something so delicate yet impactful. The crust was soft and crunchy at the same time .. The filling .. Sorry i had to pick myself up back to the chair . . The recollection of the filling is making my knees weak. Its like no other egg tart. The deep yellow filling was of a creamy pudding like texture. Its not gelatinous like its other common counterparts. I liked my chopsticks once i was done with one of those little babies.

I dont care if the chef is balding/fat/impotent/has a large fat mole on his forehead with hair sticking out of it, as long as he is single and available and below 50, I M GONNA MARRY THE HELL OUT OF THAT MAN ! ! ! ! ! ! No momma dont stop me!!!!!!! I'm in LOVE!!!! (with his egg tarts)

The new love of my life ~

Welcome to hell in living color . . .

2007-08-25T19:26:00.000+08:00

Canceled my trip to Penang yesterday. Was suppose to spend Sat and Sun with my dah-Ling and some girl frens relaxing in the sun and gorging ourselves silly. Not mentioning the dvd series that i could have bought back. But sighs. Instead canceled it to go through a therapy/couselling session with me friend later and tomorrow. I have been thinking too much. I need to let go but somehow I just can't. Really pray that this would help me loosen up. I've been really really really unhappy. I don't know how to handle stress, i don't know how to handle my own thoughts even. Feeling like I'm drowning . . . Spiraling downwards in a never ending vortex of doom. There is nothing to look forward to, I'm trying to change but somehow i keep getting cornered by my problems. Life right now is really not worth going through. If this is just the tip of the iceberg to what i might face in the future then I really don't know what else is there to live for.

Girl, interupted . . .

2007-08-20T20:35:00.000+08:00

Today was not a pleasant day.

I was misunderstood, humiliated and laughed at today.

Why do i always get the bimbo treatment? It's not my fault that the essential growth nutrients for my brains went to my boobs instead.

Maybe I'm just too over-sensitive.

Maybe I'm not.

Maybe its the truth that will hurt me even more.

Maybe its that time of the month again.

Maybe i'm being cynical.

Maybe i have a saddistic view on life.

Maybe my life now is just full of maybe's and what if's.

Maybe i need a change.

Maybe i want to leave.

Maybe i want to stay and fight.

Maybe it's all in the mind.

Maybe . . . . .

Much Ado About Nothing . . .

2007-08-19T21:57:00.000+08:00

I have been curious. Very curious indeed . . .

No its nothing naughty in nature. Recently we have all witnessed the petty yet taken too seriously news regarding the dude from Muar's defamatory video on YouTube. I went ahead and watched it on YouTube just now. And guess what? I LOVED it! He is absolutely talented. He sounded like one of the ppl from LMF, Nan Quan Mama or Machi. Well that was the musical aspect of it. As for the content of the video, i thought that he was just being truthful. Too many yrs of unfair treatment to the malaysian chinese community probably drove him create this video clip.

Dont get why everyone is making such a big fuss about the truth. Well, if you think that its untrue then why make such a big hoohah over such a small/petty matter? The message sent out by Mr Wong must been true to be able to evoke such uproar from the puak Majority here. The stuff that he said about the local policemen and the people sitting in the leaky government offices is very much true to me.

There are much more serious issues than this to be taken care of. People are dying under the hands of incapable hands of rough+slow nurses+docs in government hospitals. Why arent they putting priority into this matter? The poverty level is still apparent. Food poisoning levels in schools are still on the rise. Spousal abuse is also on the rise. What is the government doing about these issues? Stop cornering this Negarakuku guy and start zooming in on issues that are more important!

Please dont get me wrong. I do love my country. I do love the fact that i can choose between nasi lemak, roti canai or chicken rice for breakfast. However, sometimes the way we do things around here really makes me feel like migrating to Aussie.

Malaysia BOLEH ! !

*whatever~*

Future plannings . . .

2007-08-14T22:52:00.000+08:00

Well no one can exactly plan for the future. You can’t even plan the day in fact, as I learned just now. You spend lengthy hours/days/months/years arranging your dominoes, you’ve even taken the trouble to polish each and every domino before meticulously placing them in a straight row each not more than 2 inches apart. And when you think you can finally step back, breathe deeply and admire them from a distance, a steamroller rolls by and not only does your dominoes topple over, it becomes crushed to smithereens.

I remember having to fill in a ridiculous blue form when I was in high school and primary school. Had to fill in what I aspire to be when I grow up. Its funny how my answers differ each time the card is being given out. These are just some of the occupations I’ve written down; artist, nurse, lawyer, interior designer, fashion designer… etc. What am I now? Associate, Treasury Solutions – Fund Management a.k.a Sales Person. Not that there is anything to complain about. I’m being paid. I have the privileges that any employee in any company would have. But it’s just that what I’m doing now is a far cry from what I envisioned myself to be doing. The question that I really detest from interviewers is: - “Where do you see yourself in another 5 years time?” I think that this is the most clichéd question that any interviewer can ask. I have a feeling that they whipped out that question because they ran out of smart questions to ask. Hello! You tell me la what I will be doing in another 5 years time. Isn’t that the employer’s job, to help mould the employee? So I muster up some lame ass answers. “I want to be in a managing position.” I sometimes want to kill myself over this answer. What a vague thing to say. Managing what? Cow r? But thank God the interviewers never bother asking.

So, I have thought up some concrete (?) plans for my future. Things I would like to see come to pass in another maybe 5 to 10 years time.

1) Earn more than what I’m earning now. (DUH)

2) Finish paying for my little MyVi.

3) Actively looking for a place to live/In the process of getting my own pad.

4) Attached and betrothed to a tall guy that absolutely adores me for my insecurities, silly switch, for who I truly am.

5) Traveled to Dubai, Shanghai and Tokyo.

6) Be in a partnership business. Hoping to start a boutique selling urban funk shoes, accessories and apparel. (Any suggestions for a location?)

7) Be in a managing position. (Of people.)

I think that is it for now. Of course there are many more in the list but I think these are the Major ones. Laugh at it all you want but at least I have a plan. If I don’t start planning now I realize that I would be stuck in the same rut everyday for the rest of my life. Get up, get in car, get on the road, get pass the traffic, get into the office, get into the Microsoft Outlook, get appointments, get the calls going, get the deal done, get the follow-ups done, get the money rolling in, get out of office, get into car, get pass after work hour traffic, get into home, get to bed. And the whole vicious cycle starts over and over again whether I like it or not. I’m so so so so sick of this. One fine day when I have sufficient in my bank account, I vow that I would just pack it all up and leave. I don’t know where I’ll be going but I’ll just leave. Sick of living a life of mediocracies. There is so much more to life but I’m bound by contract to stay in this glass elevator. Always taking me up and down, letting me see what the world outside looks like but never ever letting me out.

So one message to all of us ants in the anthill,

Labor until you tire and then labor some more...

An Ode to a Good Man . . .

2007-08-10T00:09:00.000+08:00

Tis' too fair a day for death.

A good man passed on today.
A man that never drank, smoked and womanized.
A man that was faithful to his wife for almost 4 decades.
A man of little words.
A man that hardly showed his temper.
A good man indeed.
This man is my uncle.

He succumbed to an illness that the doctors did not know of.

There were as usual food at his house today. A large gathering of loud relatives acting smart as usual. Trying to conclude what was the cause of his death and what could have been done to prevent it. There were never I's in my family. Always We's. The lost was not only to my aunt, their 4 children and 7 grandchildren, but the lost extends to every member of the family.

Strangely, I did not know how to react to his death when i got the news. Only when i saw him lying there in his coffin, so different from the man i use to call "Ah Chong". He looked frail, thin and pale. Its funny how only when he isnt with me anymore i stared at his face. The only time i ever touched him was when he was lying in the ICU and as I was praying for him. His hands were so soft.

I would never get to tell him how i liked looking at him sometimes when he is enjoying his evening cup of coffee and crackers. I would never get to tell him how soft his hands are.

I broke down thinking of how my aunt would cope staying alone in the house she and my uncle have lived in for more than 4 decades.

Death robbed me of my uncle today but made me gain an urgency to start appreciating the relatives that God has blessed me with now.

Latest addition . . .

2007-08-06T22:35:00.000+08:00

Heys . .

Taking a break from feeling depressed. If anyone bothered to notice, there is a new thinghy-ma-jigie i added to spice up my blog. Above my narcissistic picture on your left, there is a small player on top of it. Click the 'play' button to play the current song i'm hooked onto.

Hope you folks like it!

M I S E R Y . . . . . . . .

2007-08-06T20:33:00.000+08:00

I wrote a seriously evil + nasty blog post on Fri. I think i'm too chicken shit to put it up. It contains massive amounts of profanities, which is unheard of coming from a well mannered and delicate lady such as me (you can launch your projectile vomit now). I was so angry and pissed i just typed furiously sitting alone in my little cubicle. Sometimes i really wonder if it was really worth it giving up on Aust. and moving back here. I realized that i have nothing pleasant to blog about work. In fact I cried more than i have been ever since i started work. Call me a wuss if you want to but nothing .. i tell you nothing can ever prepare me for whatever I have to go through during this period of life. Yeap not even the obscene amount of money my daddy spent sending me to uni for 3 yrs studying things that i can "apply" when i start working. I dont feel like i belong ... What is yours compared to mine? you might say. Well ... I bet what i'm facing now is a molehill/breadcrumb/tip of the iceberg/mole on an ant's back/a grain of sand if compared to what i might be facing in the future. But to me, its a big deal now. So pls dont try to reassure me by saying things like, "things will be much tougher in the future. enjoy what you have now." I dont need these kinda advice. I will physically hurl myself out of a window soon if i hear that quote again. Yes i'm admitting now that i'm not capable of handling stress very well. I'm not adequate for the dog eat dog world. Maybe that's just how I am. I'm trying my very best to change. I'm trying my very best to accommodate to everyone's needs. I tell myself every morning that I can do it! Make more calls! Follow up! Whip those CFO's butts! However after one call or two i deflate . . .

I'm seriously thinking of relocating. I'm too young for this. I should be seeing the world at this age. What am i doing here in an industry that I grew to loathe since I was in primary school?

I have totally betrayed myself . . .

Mad World . . .

2007-08-02T20:50:00.000+08:00

My view on life . . .

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Going nowhere, going nowhere
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world mad world

Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy Birthday, Happy Birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen, sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kinda funny
I find it kinda sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very mad world ... world

A whole array of sicknesssss . . . . .

2007-07-30T16:37:00.000+08:00

Urghhh .. Lousy lousy lousy ...

Woke up feeling lousy. Went to work feeling even worse. Here's a whole list of things that are not right with me:-

Headache that refuse to go away since Saturday night. Possible reason - Banged head Very hard against wall of Zara changing room while trying on a gorgeous summer dress.
Nausea.
Feverish + Light headedness.
Large ulcer/crater in mouth.
Diarrhea.

Anyone knows whats wrong with me?

Urghhhh . . . . . . . .

Palate Pallete

2007-07-28T18:34:00.000+08:00

Went to this artsy/hippy-isk/funky restaurant for lunch on Friday.

Venue:
Palate Pallate

Menu:
Set lunches for RM 20++

What I had:
Entree - Shrimp & Avocado Salad
Main course - Oxtail Shepherd's Pie
Drink - Granny's Lemonade

Verdict:
* Funky environment
* Cool table and chairs
* Very blur case waiters with bad command of english

* Food is good but not great

* Will definitely go back for happy hour drinks
* Food slightly pricey but alcoholic drinks are of average pricing

Very cool wall mural. Kudos to the artist. If he could tattoo this onto my back that would be great.

Hand painted menus.

All things round. Sesame topped bun (delicious!) with the very cute round-round herb butter.

Shrimp & Avocado Salad - The leaves were quite bitter and no longer fresh. But the avocado mash was delish. Much rather have garlic bread with it.

Oxtail shepherd's pie - Taste good. But the stench of beefy-ness is quite overwhelming. Not a prob for beef lovers like me.

A must check out - The toilet doors. Notice the peephole despite all the locks? =D

Another cool feature about the loo - Funky mirror

Sorry it looked so cute i need to have another shot added. Keke ...

Life in a Freak Show . . .

2007-07-25T19:46:00.000+08:00

I dont know who i m anymore. I liken myself to a puppet. My whole life i'm doing the bidding of others. You wanna get this done just pull the string and i'm on it. Never could i imagine when i finally thought i have my life in my own control now, the same puppetting routine happens again. I dont know what the hell is expected of me anymore. Pull my strings and i'll move for you. Now im improved even. Add in batteries and leave me alone and i'll still do your bidding. I'll put on this great show that you and others have paid good time and money to see. I put on this good act everyday for the world to see. Hiding my feelings under a mask of calm and smiles. What else do you want? You want a show i stage it. You want applauses I dance harder. You want to draw in the crowds for the show, fine i'll get the crowd in. Just leave me out of your damn theater politics. I'm just another one of your puppets trying to stay in this stage play called Life. Not only do i have to please the crowds, i also have to please my fellow puppet "pals" so that they dont sabotage me, stick pins into me, torch me. I'm just me .. I'm just trying to live life the way i envisioned it to be. I just wanna stick to my principles and believes. I just wanna stick to my own ethics. Dont rob me of what i feel is right and wrong. Dont cut my strings while im performing. Just draw the curtains when you dont want to see me anymore.

Life

It showered me with its many blooming daisies . . .
It dressed me in a frock so white, so pure . . .

Life

My frock is now stained with mud and crimson blood . . .
As I tread through the valley of thorns, it tears . . .

Life

Its beauty now a thing of the past . . .
Once perfumed with the scent of daisies . . .
Now only the faint smell of blood hangs on its skirt . . .

- Amanda Liew -

So what if I'm unhappy, hurt and beat up? I have formed a heart of wood. No longer able to feel. What are tears? I don't seem to remember anymore . . . Letting the numbness take over . . .

An Ordeal with One Very Rude Homosapien ….

2007-07-25T19:36:00.000+08:00

It’s baffling how different each one of us is from each other. We are made out of the same stuff; we all look nearly similar to each other, by which I mean we have one head, two arms, two legs etc … However the similarities, we are still as different from each other as durians are to apples. The substance that defines us is our characteristics, behavior, probably our upbringing and the environment that we come from. I just don’t understand how one human being can treat another indifferently. How can you even imagine that you are more superior to the rest of the population when we basically are of the same flesh and blood? So what if you’re born of royalty? Doesn’t make you the creator of the heavens and earth. Just despise people that are rude and people that think so highly of themselves. These people put themselves up in a pedestal so high and they have the notion that plain folks have to bow to them every morning, offer them fresh fruits and chant ego boosting mantras to them. This is just plain wrong.

Went to see the rudest man on the face of planet earth, the universe and the remaining 8 planets in it yesterday. First of all, he accused me of not bringing him the materials that he wanted when he didn’t even mention it previously in our conversation. Secondly, he spoke too loudly. Thirdly, he looked bad/hideous. Fourthly, he rushed us to finish the presentation because he is a VERY busy person. Being busy doesn’t give you the rights to spoil someone’s entire day. Does he even sleep well at night thinking of his actions? Well I’m sure he does with his ego lulling him to sleep with its songs of praise each night. My question is WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU?!! YOU YOU .. YOU NO MANNERS SON OF A GUN!!!! I DRIVE ALL THE WAY TO RAWANG JUST TO INTRO YOU TO PRODUCTS THAT WILL SAVE YOU FROM PAYING TAXES OFF YOUR PITTANCE AMOUNT OF MONEY AND YOU SHOW ME YOUR RUDE+FUGLY ASS FACE??!!!! MAY YOU HAVE A COLONY OF RED ANTS CRAWLING INTO YOUR PANTS NOW!!!!

Eh hem .. Sorry. I’m usually calm and collected but people like Mr. Rudey-Pants-Royal-Ambassador-from-the-very-depths-of-hell just makes me freaking angry. Please forgive me if I offended you with my language.

Que Sara Sara ...

2007-07-18T21:29:00.000+08:00

I just turned down an offer today. Not a very pleasant feeling. But yet strangely enough i did it smiling and giggling like a little girl. However, like Cherry Coke, I'm feeling the unsettling after taste of my decision. Left now with a feeling of doubt and confusion and uncertainty. I turned down a job that i feel i would fit in and grow in. In an industry that i love too. I don't know why i did what i did but yeah i did it. I cant say that i'm regretting my action but i wish i would be happier about it than i am now.

Regrets I have none ...
However my heart weighs a tonne ...
When I think of what i've done ..

Ah Ming in KL

2007-07-09T22:32:00.000+08:00

Kudos to Sherli for the pics. Ah-Ming-ah came all the way from Penang mari to visit us in KL. Took him to Sunway Pyramid.

The Three Stooges

I LOVE this pic. I look thin. Kakaka

There are more pics to come but this is it for now. I'm about to collapse now.

zzzzZZZZZZzzzzzZZZZZZzzzzzZZZZzzzzzZZ

Narcisscus I Am

2007-07-09T21:10:00.000+08:00

I'm proud to name myself the modern day + female version of Narcisscus. Well nothing wrong with taking poser pics of yourself from time to time except that I do it all the time. Its madness. Recently my computer went psycho and refused to acknowledge my phone cam hence not letting my transfer pics from it to my com. But just now a miracle happened and yay! I have my poser pics all in my com now! I shall start with my lunch + dinner date combo with Calvin last last week. We went to Dome's for a quick drink in the noon then met up again at night for pizza in California Pizza Kitchen.

Frosty, full-o-guilt, super chocolaty, obese inducing, delicious ice coffees from DOME

The glutton

The bill footer

Delish tortilla wraps @ California Pizza Kitchen

Super filling wood oven pizza (I forgot the name) - Ideally for 3 ppl.

Dessert! 2 glasses of that wine gave me the worse hangover ever.

NEXT ! ! !

Wan Ming's trip to KL - I only have pics of our lunch - Banana leaf rice in Taj Mahal

Sherli looking as smouldering hot as her curry

Wan Ming looking like a kodomo as usual.

The glutton looking like a glutton she is as usual.

NEXT ! ! !

This is the best part! Couldnt sleep that night so i took a whole bunch of sepia shots of myself before i slept.

THE END

Conviction . . .

2007-07-08T10:04:00.000+08:00

I'm not known to many as a deeply religious person or a highly spiritual person. I would never brand myself as a religious person either. To me, Christianity is not a religion. It wasn't stuffed down my throat or just because my mom was into it i was forced into it too. It was my choice to accept this relationship i have with my God. I've been through pretty rough times these few weeks. I'm sure from the previous posts any sight impaired person can also see that I wasn't too happy with the way my life is going so far. For non-believers its quite difficult to understand what its like to have a Heavenly figure you can look up to. It's not like you can touch Him or you can hear Him but its just weird how He finds ways to drum things into your heart and make you weep like a little baby. Well i did just that this morning in church. I cried and i cried bucket loads of tears. We were singing this hymn and the dam just broke on me. It made me feel so guilty and convicted and at the same time so comforted that there is someone looking out for me. I am assured that no matter how bad i fall and how bad i screw up, I have my God i can fall back on. I can see the light now.

How deep the Father's love for us

How deep the Father's love for us,
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure

How great the pain of searing loss,
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the chosen One,
Bring many sons to glory

Behold the Man upon a cross,
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed I hear my mocking voice,
Call out among the scoffers

It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I knoww that it is finished

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast inJesus Christ
His death and resurrection

Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom

Emmanuel

Someone pls wake me up . . .

2007-07-05T21:31:00.000+08:00

This must be a nightmare. There is no other way of describing it. Its like bring stuck in a terrible dream where you can only try to convince yourself that you will wake up soon and no longer will you have to go through this ride of terror i like to call as "life". Its like you're running through a dark corridor and every door u open is filled with pretentious people guiding you towards the wrong way which you naively believe is the right way out. I;m so sick of getting no where all the time. Life is seriously playing a massive trick on me. I dont wanna be the bunny in the hat anymore. Pls pls pls just let me out. I dont want to be involved in your stupid politics. I dont wanna be branded as the stupid one. I dont wanna play anymore. I DONT! I dont want to be the back stabbing bitch. I dont want to go on being someone i'm not.

Let me out . . . Let me go free . . .

Same ol' Same ol' . . .

2007-07-04T20:42:00.000+08:00

Good day ladies and gentlemen . . .

So good of you to join us once again in a segment I like to call, "Amanda's Constant Whinings On Life". I'm sure you wont be entertained.

Frankly speaking, I have no direction in life at all whatsoever. I'm the kind to just go with the flow. Dont get me wrong, I have tried to plan for my future but it just doesnt go right. So after a few attempts, I quit. Maybe i'm a quitter. I dont know. Just when the game says level up and the monsters are spawning at an alarming rate and coming to get me, I hit the ESC button. I dont know what I wanna do in the next five yrs. Heck, I dont even know what I'll be doing the next 5 days! I'm living my day to day life expecting nothing. Basically I'm living on empty. Everyday i wake up and its just another day. I'm terrified at the thought that i'll be like this for the next 30 yrs.

Well, life still goes on. Not the way I like it to go but anything beats being 6 ft underground. (Hint: I'm atleast trying to be positive)

H e l p . . . .

2007-06-29T13:27:00.000+08:00

Help ... I'm in pain. Pain. Pain. Pain. PAIN

I have never experienced anything like this before. Mumps? Fine. Measles? Piece of cake. Migraine? Kacang putih. This is the absolute worse of all. Except child birth ofcourse. Which i'm yet to experience. Hopefully when i do experience it I will be heavily sedated.

This couldnt have happened at a worse time. When things r getting more and more competitive at work I have to take a half day MC just to visit the dentist. Why me why me?

I hereby declare that my dream/ambition is to marry a dentist. Then i wouldnt have to worry about my wisdom teeth.

How convenient .. hmmm ... Ouchies ....

Men Men Men . . .

2007-06-23T11:38:00.000+08:00

Here is a question to all the gentlemen out there? WHERE ART THOU????

I’ve come to discover that there are no/nil/nah-dah gentlemen in Malaysia. Well perhaps I have not seen one or experience the hospitality of one before. I would not have written about this if it weren’t for the @#$%&* guy I met this morning. What happened was, I was waiting for the elevator to arrive in my working building. The lift finally came and it was a full load except for 2 more spaces in it in which my svelte + petite colleague could easily slot in and even though I’m much larger in size, I could still go in. As I was about to step in full of confidence that I would not overload the lift, that @#$%&* guy in the lift decided that I would jeopardize everyone that was in the lift’s lives by overloading the lift with my immense weight, thereby causing the lift to fall and everyone to die tragically in there before their time was up. So he did the one heroic deed that he thought would automatically land him a space beyond the Pearly Gates. He pressed the “Doors Close” button. So the doors nearly squished my head together, which could/would cause a roar of laughter, which would hurt my ego very much, hence triggering a new phobia to arise of doors, hence causing me a fear of stepping out the doors of my house, hence causing me to lose my job, hence causing me to lose my source of income, hence causing my dad to disown me because I’m a loser that could never contribute to the family, hence causing my eligibility of marriage to be virtually non-existent, hence causing me to be alone+homeless+in state of mental depression (takes a deep breath) Therefore in the very end causing me to die a very tragic+lonely+virgin+early death. I was quite shocked. Why would anyone want to close a door at my face. Am I that unattractive? I’m very confident that I’m way better looking than all of the women in the lift (Pardon me, its my ego speaking. Bad ego! Bad!) So when he decided to open the doors again I let out a very loud “ITS OK. YOU CAN CLOSE THE DOORS IF YOU SOOOO WANT TO.”

What a twit. Classless, Uncultured, Unrefined, Uneducated, Egoistical swine of a man. To call him a jackass would be an abomination to all the jackasses in the world.

Heart breaks ...

2007-06-20T20:32:00.000+08:00

Sighs .. I don't know this is the how many-th Sighs I've uttered today. (sorry gill, i cant help it) It's the 2nd day in a row that i find myself not being able to swallow my food (other than tit bits). Don't know why i just have the urge to cry all day. This morn calvin called when i was driving to work and there i was trying to beat the jam cause i woke up late with a wardrobe malfunction and a bad hair day, he just had to ask, "so how are things?" and the situation in my head looked like this --> a little man lit the fuse which was connected to a barrel full of gunpowder in my head, went to hide behind a massive rock and watched as the sparks slowly travel to the barrel ... *FIRE IN ZEE HOLE!* he shouted and KABOOM KABLAM! He blew up the dam in me head, causing the floodgates to be blown apart there forth unleashing a fury of unstoppable water, in this case tears. So i sat in my car, cursing other rude drivers wile crying my eyeballs out. There were shocked drivers as well as a very shocked calvin on the other line trying to comfort me. But that little man did his damage. The flooding didn't stop till the office either. Whenever i picked up the phone to call a "potential" client, i started tearing. I don't know if my mental state is slowly deteriorating. I don't know if its the old "girl problem" affecting these mood swings either.

I just don't know anymore. I did have a better latter half of the day though. When i say better i mean i can at least laugh it out for a moment and forget about my troubles for that moment. If you're reading this Leslie, thanks for the guidance + support. I really really appreciated it. Btw, yr impersonation of "eh hem hem" sucked. Hahaha. The role play drama failed to obtain an Oscar/Emmy/Tony. Talking to you really was the highlight of my day (other than my dose of Starbucks). No i'm not polishing your apples for a pay rise. It's what i truly felt.

Alright back to my stormy clouds now. Apparently I've been denied entry to the land of sunshines.

Why me why me .

Struggling for a better tomorrow .

You will never know me because you don't wear my chains . . . . . .

Hardcore . . .

2007-06-19T18:19:00.000+08:00

Had a lot to let out but somehow as my fingers are about to hit the keyboard, they're left hanging in mid air. There are just so many stuff squished in my head now i cant let it all out. I'm just so sick and tired of work. Feeling my absolutely crappiest today. I dont get it. I just dont get it. I try. God knows i try so hard. I push. I search. I call. I persuade. I sweet talk. I hide my uneasiness, my crappiness, my i-dont-give-a-shitness whether your company saves on the bloody tax or not, my moodiness, my depressed soul, my faltered wings, my bruised ego .. I hide all this behind a mask of smiles everyone is so used to see every freaking day of the week. There is hostility in the air of calm and muhibbah-ness in the workplace. Did not feel it in the past but i do now. I've learned to know today that when human greed and need for money/recognition can grow to a point to where aquaintances and friends dont matter anymore. The basic human ethics are flung out of the window. Well, this just further highlights the phrase "its a dog eat dog world". You gotta be ahead to BE ahead. You gotta defend yourself. You gotta work hard to beat the rest to the juiciest piece of the steak.

At times like these i really wish i could just leave it all behind.

"Boston"

In the light of the sun, is there anyone?

Oh it has begun...

Oh dear you look so lost,

eyes are red and tears are shed,

This world you must've crossed...

you said...

You don't know me, you don't even care,

oh yeah,

She saidYou don't know me,

and you don't wear my chains...

oh yeah,

Essential yet appealed,

carry all your thoughts across

An open field,

When flowers gaze at you...

they're not the only ones who cry

When they see you

You said...

You don't know me,

you don't even care, oh yeah,

She said

You don't know me, and you don't wear my chains...

oh yeah,

She said I think I'll go to Boston...

I think I'll start a new life,

I think I'll start it over,

where no one knows my name,

I'll get out of California,

I'm tired of the weather,

I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...

I think I'll go to Boston,

I think that I'm just tired

I think I need a new town,

to leave this all behind...

I think I need a sunrise,

I'm tired of the sunset,

I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice...

oh yeah,

You don't know me, you don't even care...

Boston... where no one knows my name... yeah

Where no one knows my name...

Pleaing for a moment of sanity . . .

where ?

2007-06-19T17:48:00.000+08:00

where are my sunshines?

where is my bowl of cherries?

where is my knight in shining armour?

where is my castle on the hill?

where is my pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?

where is my rainbow?

where is the icing on my cake?

where are you God when I need you now . . .

Perfection ...

2007-06-11T19:32:00.000+08:00

Alright i shall expose one of my worse habits to you avid readers of my blog now. I often .. often .. often ... Now b4 a stream of dirty thoughts run through your head, I would like to put a halt to those thoughts and confess that I often read in bed b4 I sleep. Haha. I know its not a big deal but to an ophthalmologist, I'm an absolute nightmare. First of all i have an eye birth defect - aestematigsm - which would require me to wear glasses at all times when reading - I dont. I'm required to sit upright when reading - I lie down. I'm also required to read in good lighting - I dim the lights. So yeah that's my bad habit. Which i dont plan to change unless i go partially blind.

My current b4-sleep read is The Memory Keeper's Daughter by Kim Edwards. In this novel, the main character, David and his wife, Norah were expecting. When his wife gave birth, in which he was the emergency gynae, they had no idea that they were having twins (the story was set in the 1960s and 70s). So when he pulled out a perfect baby boy he thought that was it. But he then delivered a baby girl. She was born with down syndromes. Afraid that his wife would not be able to cope with the emotional stress of bringing up a down's baby, he immediately gave the baby to his nurse, Caroline. Caroline was told to bring the baby to an institution right away but after looking at the poor condition of the institution she decides to keep the baby, Phoebe. David then told his wife that their baby girl was a still born. Caroline brought the baby as her own. To know what happened to Phoebe and the rest of the crew, ask me or buy the book.

After reading this book over and over again (another habit of mine), i began to think about David's actions. His want, need, strive for perfection in this case, a perfect family, caused much grieve and strain to his relationship with his wife in the end. What is with the world and it's need for perfection these days? Skinny girls working out in the gym and having lipo, 30 yr olds getting botox and a face lift, etc etc ... Aren't you just glad that you were born anatomically correct? All the other nitty gritty stuff dont really matter. So what if there are a few fine lines or if you have let urself go a bit? There is nothing that a better diet and exercise cant do to improve ur situation. The plastic surgeons would advice you otherwise i'm sure. In my opinion perfection use to mean the highest degree of proficiency, skill, or excellence, as in some art. Now its a blur of a word. An ambiguous word. A vague word. Someone may think that they are perfect but once they see the latest cover of Cosmo that would all change. The beauty industry is a major kaching kaching industry these days. I would love to have my thighs shrunked and my tummy tucked. But if i'm gonna turn into a Courtney Love, Joan Rivers and Melanie Griffith combo (surgery freaks) then no thank you. I'll live with my elephantitis/thunder/Maradona thighs, and my wobbly jell-o tummy and be grateful to be still alive and attractive (self perception).

Learn to love yourself people ! ! !

I love me

Adidas Gazelle Vintage "London"

2007-06-11T19:14:00.000+08:00

Here is my latest pride and joy. My baby baby precious honey my sweets my pumpkin pie my ... and the list of spine tingling, hair raising baby pet names continues. Say hello to the newest addition to my shoe collection family.

Adidas Gazelle Vintage "London"

Oh this is also my very first non-halal pair of shoes. It has the *snort snort squeel squeel* skin lining. So pls refrain from touching my shoes if you dont believe in the slaughtering of piggies.

Happy happy joy joy ~

Ah Gua look-a-like contest winner ...

2007-05-23T19:38:00.001+08:00

Hi guys ...

I have been transformed by a very rude, grim looking, unpleasant, country bumpkin looking kinda woman. I went from looking like Fabulouso (by my own standards) to Ah-Gua-louso or for you non-chinese ppl out there Tranny-licious. Let me illustrate. I use to look like this . . .

And like this . . .

To looking like THIS!!!!!!! . . . . . . . . .

GIVE IT BACK !!! GIVE MY LONG SEXY LOCKS BACK TO ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*shrinks to a corner wailing like a mad woman*

Berjaya Hills ...

2007-05-01T21:52:00.000+08:00

Its the holidays! YAY!!! Went to Berjaya Hills today (formerly known as Bukit Tinggi). Entrance fee is RM 16. Not too bad for a day trip. There is no need to spend a night there if you're from KL. Its a 45 mins drive away from KL. Easy to get to. But beware of the very sharp road turnings. My trip was segmented into 3 diff locations.

Location # 1 : RABBIT FARM

Location # 2 : JAPANESE GARDENS

Location # 3 : CALMAR TROPICALE (French Village)

There are somemore pictures to come so stay tuned ! ! !

My Celebrity Lookalikes # 2 ...

2007-04-30T21:22:00.000+08:00

Once again I'm highly flattered ...

My Celebrity-Lookalikes ...

2007-04-30T21:08:00.000+08:00

I'm highly flattered .... kekeke

Little miss quite contrary ....

2007-04-29T14:38:00.000+08:00

What makes a girl a girl? Is it really a combo of sugar, spice, and all things nice? R we all from venus?

It makes me cringe in disgust when the general public, typically men, stereotype women. So when we are women we are natural gossipers? Shopaholics? High heeled freaks with an immense love for the color pink and all things lacy, pot pourried and perfumed? I've got news for you baby ... Not all women are like that so try to drum that into that skull of yours. Was just discussing this topic with Sherli in the car that day. Why do men automatically think that women loves collecting Barbie dolls and that we love the color pink? I've had countless guy friends of mine telling me that i'm different. That I'm not a typical girl. So what do u think is a typical girl? Just break that stereotypical view of yours and hey presto! I'm not that different actually. I still love shopping. I still say "SO CUTE" in a very high pitched tone when i see a kitten/puppy/mini dress with cherries on it. But dont u ever think that I will be a submissive little pet that will succumb to your whims just because you got me a teddy bear. I will not go "aiye.. so cute wan the bear bear. U so sweet la.. I cook for u tomorrow ok? I come over and wash your baju for u la ok?" Urghh disgusting. I will not be sobbing my eyeballs out and begging you to return to me when you leave me for another girl that looks like Selena/Hebe/Rainy Young (la-la girls these days try to emulate these 3 girls and i personally find it repulsive and a no brainer move to do so. Purple and orange Dont mix! Get it?!)

So i'll tell u the things that I like in contrary to my other female kind. I like the sensation of needles going into my skin (no im not sick. i'm just weird), I like cars & no i dont like the Beetle or the little mini mini cars on the road, I like cars big, huge in fact, my dream is to be married in a Hummer, I hate the color pink, I change my own tyres, I DIY-ed all of the DIY-able furniture in my house, no i'm not afraid frogs/toads, I AM NOT AFRAID OF CHIPPING MY OWN NAILS, I enjoy watching soccer and whole bunch of etcs ....

This post may have sounded slightly angry/like a verbal lash out to men/desperate plea for help .. But please dont get me wrong. I just have stuff in my head that I wanna express. So girls, dont ever have the mentality that when you're born a women, you have to be weak and voiceless over men. You can open your own jar. Just use a bit more strength and perseverence. And if that doesn't work, take a rubber band, tie it around the lid, and open the jar. It works everytime. Rubber acts like a grip, get it?

In conclusion,

No I'm NOT a lesbo. I still love men inspite of their idiosyncrasies and
inablity of asking for directions . . .

Confessions of a self stressor ...

2007-04-25T21:32:00.000+08:00

Hmm ... Its been awhile since i've written one of my sarcasm filled, back stabbing, heart wrenching confession episodes. I've noticed that recently i have been posting like the any regular Janes formatted kinda posts. Examplar - "Hi blog, Today i went out with ah beng .. we ate char keow teow then we went for a movie. *pic of plate of greasy char keow teow inserted*. The movie was gd and so was the char keow teow. Ah beng bought me a teddy bear *pic of teddy bear included*. I like it so much. Bye bye blog." Well dont get me wrong pls. I dont have anything against bloggies like these but its just not me. And i guess these few days i have not been myself to myself. Following the robotic regime of what is expected of me without giving much thought about what i really want. Been like that for nearly 4 weeks now. Wake up at 6. Get to work 1 and a half hrs early to beat traffic. Call and meet clients. Come home for dinner and then research somemore numbers to call up then go to bed early to wake up early the next day. WHAT THE CRAP AM I DOING?? This is not me at all. Everyday i set a high jump bar like 50 meters high for myself to jump across. And when i barely make that bar i fall so low that i go into a depressive mode. Ppl tell me that i stress myself up. I didnt have any clue what they were trying to tell me. I always thought that it was what is expected outta me as a working class kuli. I really dont get my clients. Or the ppl I'm trying to call. This is a really gd product that I'm promoting. Why wont you just give me like 2 mins to explain myself? I'm willing to drive to Klang to see you and kiss your @#$ so why wont you just have the decency to return my calls or to have a brief thought about the products??! I regard this as the fall of plain common sense and common courtesy. They have truly failed themselves as human beings.

SIGHS ...........................

W O R K . . . . .

2007-04-05T21:56:00.000+08:00

Started work in AmInvestments Group on Monday. My position - Associate Corporate / Institutional Sales. Fancy name for sale la aiya. But sales on a corporate level. Can't explain what I do but it's sales in a nutshell. Arrived too early to work this morning. Work starts at 8.45 am but I arrived at 7.30 pm. Took some mou liu pics when i was alone. hehe.

Step into me office ....

Flirty flirty ...

My super model pose ... Modelling for the clothes ... hehe

M praying for more favour now. God please help me !

Ah Bee Koh Koh's Wedding ...

2007-04-05T20:36:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday attended me couzie bro's wedding in Tai Thong Restaurant Jln Ampang. Lovey dovey event filled with laughter, FOOD and yam sengs. I LOVE weddings!!

Scoliosis ....

2007-03-28T17:50:00.000+08:00

Went to the orthopedic specialist in Damansara Specialist Centre today. Dr Gan Eng Seng is his name. Finally found out why i walk with a limp after more than 15 yrs. Took about 10 shots of X-Rays today. Only 1 of them revealed the answer. I have Scoliosis. Scolio what you may ask. Simply explained as curvature of the spine. All the while i thought it was my legs. Turned out it was my spine. Sighs ... Treatment? Nil. Surgery? Doc doesn't recommend it. Got to have the left foot of my shoes elevated. My beautiful shoes will look horrible now. How am i feeling? Mild depression-ish kind of feeling i guess. A feeling of defeat.

Damansara Specialist Hospital - The logo on my x-ray gown.

My tortured expression after standing half naked in a freezing room.

The 3 injured & badly bandaged dinosaurs in Dr Gan's office. Done by his children i guess. Or they could be his early guinea pigs.

Look how my spine curves. Sighs ...

What I can do now it pray for healing. Surrender everything to my Daddy up in heaven.

You made me this way so fix it please Daddy. Straighten my spine ok? Thank you Daddy.

AMEN

So Sweeeeeeeeeeet ! ! !

2007-03-27T16:09:00.000+08:00

Recently received this little song from "an undisclosed person" for personal reasons i will not mention. Eh hem eh hem. Please do understand. Don't wan you kepoh people out there to spread nonsense about me hehe. I don't know how to insert the song but here are the lyrics. It just sweetened my whole day. Ahhh ... Candy canes, rainbows, flying pink unicorns, ....

You're my hunny bun, sugar plum, pumpy upmy upmy upmkin.
You're my sweetie pie.

You're my cuppy cake, gumdrop, shyummkums pure,
The apple of my eye!

And I love you so, and I want you to know that i'll always be right here.

And I love to sing this song to you
Because you are so dear!

To Mr Eh Hem Eh Hem .. Thank you lots for the song. Really brightened my crappy day. I can eat bittergourd/orange skin/grass later and still feel that its sweet. Good la can have a sugar free day today. hehe. "hugs"

Candyman ...

2007-03-26T15:44:00.000+08:00

Officially my favorite video clip and song ! ! ! Makes me feel like dancing immediately .. Come on and pick up your dancing shoes people!

Deliciousness ...

2007-03-21T13:31:00.000+09:00

Venue : NanXiang Mantou Shop

Location : The Curve Shopping Center

Eaters : Amanda Liew & Calvin

Verdict : MUST GO LA AIYO ! ! ! THE FOOD GOOD LIKE MAD ! ! !

Effect on you wallet : Not good. Really not good. This lunch costs Rm 70 +++. Poor Calvin :D

The shop sign. Sorry me no read chinese words.

Very good chinese tea

1st dish - Dumplings with rice filling - Super delicious

2nd dish - Siu Long Pau - Pork and ginger filling - Delicious until want to die!

3rd dish - Slurpee Pau (Sorries i dont know what its called so i gave my own version of the name) - Hmm mixed feelings about this one. The soup inside the pau was delish but the exterior not so nice. Plus i dont like the idea of them putting the straw there when the soup is so hot.

Me doing the slurpee slurpee

4th dish - Calvin's order - Deep fried crab ball with crab meat and crab roe center filling - I could just die there after eatting this and be totally contented with life. I wanna marry the chef that made this!!

5th dish - Dessert - Sou Peng with red bean paste filling. Hmm .. Could have been better.

Last but not least - Shang Hai drunken chcken - Served cold. It's SO good!!! The rice wine gravy fantastic man! ! !

Conclusion : Definate repeat patrionage!

Snapshots from Nokia 6280

2007-03-12T18:03:00.000+09:00

Just a few snappies from me new phone. Left the old 6280 back in Perth so got a new one here. There are shots here taken from my recent trip to S'pore and some from back home KL.

A gila shot of me & Calvin in Old Town Kopitiam

My GORGEOUS little black dress ! ! !

A little shop in Clarke Quay, S'pore was selling these very cute wood bunny wabbits

Newest addition to the McD's b'fast menu.

The coolest bar ever!! Its called "CLINIC". Try and figure out what the steel cabinets were used for!

A glimpse of the calmer side of S'pore from Clarke Quay

A naughty handphone pouch i got from Bugis Junction. Only SGD 4.90!

My 2 bargain buys from Bugis Junction. 2 skirts for the price of 1 !! 2 skirts for only SGD 23 ! !

Delish triple decker club sandwich from Crystal Jade Macau

Very cute goldfish CNY decor outside of Seiyu, Bugis Junction (My absolute fav place to shop!)

A new Amanda emerges. Daddy's little girl no more. I am taking charge of my own life now.

I'm launching off ! ! Wish me luck ! !

My Niece ! !

2007-02-19T21:32:00.000+09:00

Here's a new addition to my mom's side of the family. My 6 month old niece ! Isn't she lovely? I'm usually not the one cooing and oggling over babies but she is just TOO CUTE!! Plus she didnt cry one bit when i handled her. What a good girl!

Look at her tiny hands!!!

Right after her bath

Bum bum shot .. Awwwww

I have been given the important task of giving her an english name. Any Suggestions???

The Graduate

2007-02-17T15:18:00.000+09:00

Graduation : 13th February 2007
Graduate : Liew Wei Peng
Venue : John Curtin Forum, Curtin University of Technology
Bachelor of Commerce (International Business)

Official photograph

Looking stunning

Me & Mommy dearestMe & Daddy
Me & Sherli my official and pro photographer for the evening

" You are educated. Your certification is in your degree. You may think of it as the ticket to the good life. Let me ask you to think of an alternative. Think of it as your ticket to change the world. " Tom Brokaw

Last Day in Zion Praise Harvest

2007-02-12T22:32:00.000+09:00

Last Sunday was officially my final day in church. So terribly sad that I have to leave my 2nd family after 1 and a half yrs here. Here are some last pics with my darling frens. Boo hoo

Me & "Mambo"
Me, Edwin and Sherli
Me and Johnny

Me & Caroline
Me & Stan da Man

Me & Jimmy
Yo its Marcus

Didnt noticed that Ivan is that tall

A much thinner Alfred, me and Sherli

Shall miss them all sighs .....

Amanda The Graduate

2007-02-12T22:24:00.000+09:00

Hey people ...

Just went to collect me graduation outfit today. Mom took this picture of me. Obviously her photography skills tak boleh pakai. keke. I look horrendously overweight (which i m btw).

Dont you just love my shoes. kaka.

Graduation is tomorrow! WOO HOO

YHA Sydney Railway Square

2007-02-03T12:56:00.000+09:00

This was the backpacker's place that we stayed in in Sydney. Great place.

YHA SYDNEY RAILWAY SQUARE

The lounge area aka "chor tai D" area

The Hallway to our lair #211

The pool area

View of the front counter and entrance

Zee kitchen

Le Refridgerator ~

Our Hobo Lair ... Was very clean b4 we took over =D

Wanna see more pics of this place? Click Here

Definately a place worth staying ! ! !

Pictures from Melbourne

2007-01-30T20:00:00.000+09:00

Here are just some of the 700++++ pics i took from the trip. Impossible to upload everything ok.

The gorgeous 12 Apostles.

We were never sane

The RazorbackWith our tour guide Mr Luke *Bong*

The cutest dingo ever
At the Pyramid Rocks

Me the fatso at The NoobiesTaking an illegal shot at the Penguin Parade - Philip Island

With Big Momma Koala - Philip Island

All together in the city of Melbourne

All my other shots of Melbourne consists of buildings and more buildings and more tiles and floors. I'll dedicate one whole blog to it next time. Now am dead tired from craning my neck and straining my eyes looking out for the possums (refer to previous blog about the possums).

Nite nite!

Greetings from civilization

2007-01-30T19:31:00.000+09:00

Ello fellos ...

I bring to you greetings from the very chillly Melbourne, Victoria. Currently staying in my uncle Jimmy's place. Taking a L O N G holiday thats what i'm doing. After 3 yrs of pure mental torture, this holiday is exactly what i need. Being one with my lazy, relaxed self, being z e n ... Spending lazy afternoons strolling in the city, catching up with my aunty June, coffees in cozy cafes, BIG lunches and dinners too. So people in Perth you are to expect a fat mellow fellow aka an obese sloth (very rare occurance) returning to Perth on the 9th of feb. I absolutely love Melb! The people here are more fast paced and there are less of the older generation living here compared to Perth. I'm not loving the weather though. I'm catching a cold from the weather changes here. It's mad i tell u.

Had a great holiday with some of me chums. Sherli, Charlene and Eleena. Been in Melb and then took a damn long train ride to Sydney (yes yes uncle Dennis, we should have taken Jetstar). It was actually fine with the train ride. Just take away the upright seats and children + babies and all will be fine. Sydney was absolutely CRAZY!`MADNESS!~LUDACRACY! Its hectic, polluted, noisy and congested. But i liked it strangely enough. I would dare call it the New York of the Downunder. People are ridiculously fashionable. Loved the backpacker place that we stayed in. Absolutely recommendable - YHA SYDNEY RAILWAY SQUARE. Its very clean i tell u. Only one flaw was the racist %$#@ woman that was at the front desk. Accused us of not paying fully or something like that. Celaka dia la. Ppl pay everything already ok. Made me stressed during my holiday.

I'm very blessed to have great company and great relatives here i can count on to make my holiday an even greater experience. Aunty June has been in an attempt to break my legs by dragging me into different different shopping areas. Uncle Jim has been in an attempt to further expand my bowels by taking me to various eatting spots and cooking up delicious meals as well.

Blessed is ME that I'm constantly surrounded by love and generosity ...

I was very worried by my financial matters on whether i can spend a hoboless holiday or not. However God always has His ways in making sure that his daughter have the best in life. Aunty June gave me some money yesterday. Have even enough to buy my graduation sash. Thanks ah yee! Love u!

Alright i better load some pics and be off on my possum hunt. I'm told that they come every night to my uncle Jim's hse and crap on his car when they are enjoying their dinner (leaves from his tree). I'm determined to see these pests tonight. Will maybe get a pic too if i can. Wish me luck!

xoxx

Like Finally!

2007-01-11T21:26:00.000+09:00

Hey earthlings ..

Yeaps i've finally decided to make an appearance after being MIA for a fair while. So whats new whats new? The Christmas has come and gone, New Yr's come and gone as well. I loved 2006. A lot happened to me last last which i nvr thought will. I compiled a list:

- Checked myself into a hospital for the very first time - for a minor issue and to make full use of my insurance

- Gone into single mode

- Made more friends that i could ever imagine possible

- Matured?

- Bought too many stuff

- Had the bestest birthday EVER!!! - Thanks guys!

- Grew spiritually

- Not been depending on my earthly daddy but depended Totally on my heavenly Daddy

- Got a the greatest job and the greatest boss in the whole entire universe

- Gained a bunch of close friends that i would not forget till senile-ism kicks in

- For the first time agreed that the winner of America's Next Top Model deserved to win

Actually there is more to the list but i just dont have the time to write in. So overall 2006 was a terrific yr and i hope there is more to expect in the year 2007. Hope to get a full time job, keep in contact with everyone and keep my heavenly treasures well stocked.

Well, will be heading to Melb and Syd for a holiday next Tues. Wont be back till the 9th of Feb.

Till then .... Have yourself a fantastic 2007!

Miracles DO Happen ! ! !

2006-12-14T13:12:00.000+09:00

HEY EVERYBODY!

I
A M
A
G R A D U A T E
! ! ! !

NOT BY MY MIGHT BUT BY THE POWER +
GRACE OF GOD ! ! ! !

$#@$#@%#@%

2006-12-12T09:38:00.000+09:00

Just a short update on myself because didnt pay enough for the uni parking ticket. And the reason why as to i have to pay for a parking is because i ... HAVE A CAR ! ! ! Well technically it isnt mine. My boss went back to Indonesia and left me and Sherli to be the legal guardian of her PRADO CRUISER. So yes yes we are proud parents. And the reason why i have to come to uni is because i dont have an internet connection in my house anymore!!! ARGHHHH .. Hence the rude title. My china housemate left suddenly (moved) without telling us. And that stinky landlord of ours didnt informed us either. So we came home to no internet. Boo hoooooo! Its like a bad divorce. Your partner just leaves with the kids, the family car and the family dog. And left you with nothing. So that is the tale of my jerky housemate from Henan mainland china.

That is all the update that i have for now. Results will be released today at 12 am. Please pray for me. But i believe in miracles and that God will pull me through no matter what.

So, appreciate your internet connections people!

*Love love*

A season of partings ....

2006-12-03T00:08:00.000+08:00

If only what the old gypsy lady at the fair could accurately do what she does .. If only your life could be told by looking through a glass ball in front of you. I certainly wish i could do that. My Japanese punching bag, Hiro leaves today, bound for Japan. I may not ever get to meet him again. I dont know what to feel right now. People are just leaving and dissapearing just when i'm getting to know them better. Yeah friends come and go but why cant they stay? Racheal also left to go home to Malaysia couple of days ago. Her leaving was like a wake up call to me. What am i doing? What am i going to do? I suddenly dont know anymore. I thought i had it all figured out. I could never be so wrong ...

"Death by choclate" - Chocolate cake & Ice Mocha

Me, Janice & Hiro

Playing with sephia mode

Took a walk down to the Bell Towers after cake. Wonder when will i ever get to see Hiro again. Maybe i would make it to Japan next year. Maybe .. Maybe .. Maybe ..

Que' Sera Sera

My Slump ...

2006-11-24T00:30:00.000+08:00

This is Freaking Funny .. Enjoy!!!

Pictures from Pre-Exam Period ...

2006-11-22T22:52:00.000+08:00

Heys,

Just some pictures that I havent had the time to post because of exam constraints. These are taken during the Church Together event. What happens in all churches in the whole of Perth gathers together in this open air garden (Supreme Court Gardens) and we worship, praise, listen to the word and pray together for the city of Perth and for Australia. This year's CT was so cool, we had a very good preacher, J John (a very comical British indian) and we had HILLSONGS UNITED to lead the ending praise and worship WOO HOO! It was so fun! If heaven is like this i would wanna die now. Take me Lord TAKE ME!! Left feeling spiritually charged. There was something that J John said about people trying to pinpoint the logicality of being a Christian and the logicality of the bible. So he asked them this

So tell me, if everything has a logical explanation, why is it that a black cow which eats green grass, produce white milk?

View from Supreme Court Gardens - Sunset and the Bell Tower

Me and Sherli before the event started

Wan Ming and his sleeping buddha pose. Notice our landlord's bed sheet. We used it as a picnic cloth. haha

The very comical J John

The Fabulous HILLSONGS UNITED!!

Typically Me ...

2006-11-22T22:28:00.000+08:00

Hi bloggie ...

Finally i'm penning since my dreadful exams .. Just finished my final finalest paper today. And sadly to say i didnt do good at all. AT ALL. It's all up to God now. Gonna pray hard that i can manage to scrape through. Was devastated. After the exam i just ran out, hid in a corner, put on my sunnies and cried my heart out. Called my mom for comfort and that made me cry even more. To emphasize how the paper was, i cried all the way home even in the bus. Oh well. Didnt calm my nerves but i've decided to surrender all to God now. Only He can help me now. Let's just leave that as that.

Just came out of the tub. Had myself a about 1 hour bath just now. Took a soak in the tub with my mp3 player blasted out loud and with my Glamour magazine. Ahhh ... Life ... I needed some pampering after what i went through today. Sorry no pictures of my x-rated soak in the tub. keke. As i was soaking in the tub i was just thinking back on the series of events that lead me here. To Perth. You know what, things just dont happen by chance. How on earth did i make the decision to go to metropolitan college? How on earth did i manage to come to Perth even? I never never thought i would be living out on my own, in a foreign country, living with a landlord from Macedonia and soaking in his tub now even. It's just so weird that this is all happening. I always thought i would be stuck in malaysia, maybe study in UTAR, stay at home till i'm old enough to marry to move out. But i'm actually making grown up decisions for myself now. Making decisions about my PR, finally taking hold of my own spiritual life. That was a big step. But there is still so much ambiguity having over my head right now. It's weighing against my chest like some overgrown tumor permanently stuck on my back. Sometimes i just dont know what i want. Maybe i do but the road to achieve looks impossible and i'm just too afraid to attempt it even. Just praying for a way out. There would be one I'm sure. That day someone in church was saying that the blessings that God has instore for us are there already. We just have to wait for it to fall into place.

I'm hoping that my life
would fall into place now.

Without me falling apart first ...

27th & 28th of October

2006-11-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

The fantastic gifts from me amigos - Tshirt: Cell - Ang pow: Mags - Body Shop scent - Wan Ming - Nine West bag - Racheal, Vinson, Janice, Hiro

The beautiful charm bracelet from my darling Sherli

The gorgeous me in Cottlesloe Beach

Steamboat Pictures - All the food! *drools* - Also inserted are some pics taken due to partial typsiness. Great times .... Thanks for the great times guys!

The Best Year of My Life

2006-10-30T19:51:00.000+08:00

Alas I'm 22 ...

I had the most wonderful birthday celebration ever. I'm just really so blessed to know that my existence here is not by accident. Everything is preplanned so perfectly. It took 22 years for a perfect birthday to happen. Too good to be true really. I have to thank all my darling darling friends for this. I'm still reliving the shock of my birthday surprise. My cell group darlings were mean mean mean! What a nasty trick turn great guys! Salute you guys man. All should get an individual Oscar. The biggest Oscar ought to go to Mags. Thanks for being the Ultimate Mastermind. Keke. They surprised me with a eaten + Woolies bought chocolate cake when i appeared for cell. To top it off they restricted me form opening my gift. I was really thinking that it would be a lingerie set or something. AFter cell they didnt even let me take home my present! Was in Kath's car when i thought i was going home. But she said she needed to go to uni first together with Sherli. Was quietly thinking "where got ppl go to uni so late wan?" I didnt doubt Kath but Sherli going to uni that late was weird. Keke. Little did i know that i was inching closer n closer into their perfect trap. Cis. Kath said she needed to change first. So was chlling in her room and yakking on the phone with Rach when the lights went off and when i turned back the whole lot of them was there with a beautiful birthday cake (not eaten). I was speechless ... Got great gifts. The cell got me an Astro boy tshirt which i went nutz over a few weeks ago (Thank you for remembering Sherli darling!). Wan Ming got me a large bottle of White Musk from Body Shop. Thanks!! Thanks Mags for your ang pow. SO touched. *sniff sniff* Rach, Hiro, Jan and Vinson got me the Nine West bag i wantde sooo much. Thank u sooo much!! And finally when i finally plop to bed that nite my head rested some something hard. When i inspected me pillow there was a gift from my darling sherli inside. A chunky silver bracelet which is so me. Thank u thank u! My bro also gave me a present in the form of some mellow songs from Oasis. Sent neatly to me email inserted with it was a lame birthday song. Kaka. Thanks bro!

The next day was equally as good. Celebrated again with my lovely group members (hiro, jan, rach) and sherli. Took a bus to Cottlesloe Beach and had a steamboat dinner in Hiro's place. It was such a gorgeous day for the beach. The not so good thing was Hiro's LOUD singing in the bus. It wouldnt be so bad if it was hit songs but he sang "a whole new world" and some mary poppins songs. People were looking and a old man couldnt stop staring at Hiro. PAI SEH man!! But it was hilarious!!! I bought my first Tankini!!!!!! My very first swim suit y'all!! Only got the top. My top kept slipping but that didnt stop me from having fun. Nearly drowned a few times thanks to the strong currents. And had a bad leg cramp which is causing me to limp slightly now. I saw my first naked woman at the shower there too. A day full of firsts. SHe just took off her swimsuit and showered herself. Mind you the showers didnt have doors. Had a full view of her unshaven cha cha. Oh man. Totally unnecessary. Oh well moving on. We gathered again at nite for dinner. Delicious man the steamboat. Ate so much. Drank a lot too *hick*. Thank you Rach, Vinson, Hiro, Janice and sherli for making my day a glorious one!!!!!!!!!!!

Only regret? That my Malaysian buddies wasn't here to celebrate with me.

... I'm truly blessed

What magical birthday

Wishes do come true ...

Strategic Management 313

2006-10-26T19:23:00.000+08:00

Sorries this is a continuation from my previous post Kampai! Yamseng! Cheers!. Was not happy that all the pictures couldnt be uploaded so am doing so here. Keke. Sorry m a Camera-Ho.

Its too beautiful for words ... *sniffles*

Kampai! Yam seng! Cheers!

2006-10-26T18:38:00.000+08:00

Hey hey hey ...

Dedicate this post to my 3 lurvely Strategic Management 313 group members. It was record breaking this group. No we didnt top the university grades. It was for me the fastest group formed, the most fun i've had, everybody put in effort, and we were not the Assignment Based Friends kinda thing. But that was partially caused i knew Janice and Rach from metro kaka. But we Malaysianised Hiro which was good. He seem to be influenced with the La-ism culture. Will miss him after he returns to Japan.

Today we had the final part of our assignment launched. The presentation of our Formula 1 poster. We spent 36 aud printing the darn thing. I thought it was fantabulous. But we didnt win the poster contest but Whatever! It was grrrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeaaaat!!! (`ala Keloggs Tiger style). As a group we had our ups and downs. Ups - Picnic, Aganzi special cake + coffee and Tuesday curry and rice specials. Downs - Staying late late late in uni to finish up the ass'ment. There were frustrations. But that was mainly Hiro's issue with a constant need to feed and his blurness. In the end it was good team effort guys!

Lovies u all!

*Note: Why on earth am i talking like a freaking bimbo? ~ Like like how on earth do they like put the chocolate chip in the like cookie guys? *twirling hair* Like the cookie is hard and all. And the chip is like all soft like it seems Impossible! The cookie man is SOO smart! *said with a squeek* ~ But do forgive me. I'm just tired. Your regular B**ch will return after in a day or two.

Snappy snappy b4 our presentation.

The beautiful girls ....

The must have Charlie's Angels shot .... Though it seems more like the three relunctant girls forced to visit their aging 80 yr old grandpa or else we will be cut off from his will shot ...

Knowing me, there were loads more shots. Unfortunately Blogspot's inefficient photo system has prohibited me from loading anymore. Ciseth .....

Amanda's First Ebay Purchase

2006-10-24T21:48:00.000+08:00

It's my very first purchase from Ebay y'all. Well actually Sherli was the buyer but that's cause i don't have an account with ebay. If i register in with my credit card my dad's gonna kill me. So what did i bought? Nothing big really. Only costs 8 AUD with postage fees included. Bought a Little Black Silicone Dress for my PSP. Fit like a charm. Maybe will get a game or two from there too. Gotta to some active searching. Will never go for bags, shoes or clothes though. Here are some pics of the lovely "dress".

Lonely Mandy ...

2006-10-03T23:54:00.000+08:00

Heys,

I'm feeling rather pathetic now. M actually talking to my blog like as if Bloggy is a real person that can pick up chicken with chopsticks and proceed to dip it into soy sauce before savoring it. Bloggy, you are the only person that i'm capable of talking to right now. Sad isn't it. Yes yes i know. I have to go get a life. But there isn't a car that i can drive to this life place thinghy. I really dont wanna be sitting here and typing incessantly about things i shouldnt be paying so much attention to but i just cant help it. It sucks when it's this cold and you're sitting all alone and looking at your IM list and there isnt anyone you can pour your heart to without them thinking that you're totally babbling incessantly. Sighs. What if i just wanna walk away? What if i just stand up and say NO for once? What if there is an alternative solution that doesnt involve me? What if there is something that can be managed without me having to partake in the process of it? Urgh .. Sorry Bloggy. Bombarding you with questions that no one can answer. Its just me and avoidance have this thing/relationship going on right now. We apparently go very well together. Actually having a threesome with Avoidance and Procrastination. I just wanna run away right now from reality. Run away to my happy place. Where only purple unicorns exist. Oh no there cant be. Cause they will stink up the place with their purple dung. Alright ppl allowed into my happy place includes, ppl that has a sense of humor, ppl that has common sense, ppl that are not sarcastic in any manner, ppl that are genuine, ppl that does not look like super models. I'll work on the list when i'm feeling better. Just hate it when life gets so cliched. So what if u happen to want something at a point of time? It's bound to wear off isnt it? So dont make any connections with that bound to wear off thing and the current person. Dont u understand that that current person may be hurt? Hurt from not getting that thing at that point of time maybe. Trying to recover from not able to obtain that thing. Urgh.. am losing my mind. Need to focus on my assignments but my head is just going in La-di-da mode. Procratination you are a pain in the butt right now. But i still love you. What am i doing going on and on about things that majority of my blog readers (if there happen to be readers) wont understand? Am just complicated kapish? Please dont start leaving me msgs of the various psychiatric treatment that i can seek. I dont want non of that. If i were to go insane, pls rest assured that i will be a Happy insane woman. So if i'm happy then just leave me alone. Thanks for listening me out Bloggy. Really appreciated it. Want a game of checkers? I dont have the board but we can play an online game. What do you mean you have a date with Xanga. Great now m truly alone. Thanx world. Reality really bites.

Sanity sanity where art thou ...

You Give Me Something ...

2006-10-01T20:11:00.000+08:00

I just dont know how songwriters/artists gets all their creative juices. There are so many words in the dictionary but somehow how did they manage to piece them together to create something inspirational, heart-felt, something that really reaches out to people and they somehow manage to say what you have trapped in your own mind which you cant seem to find words to describe it. I'm just in awe with what they do. If i were to write a song it would only consists of not more than 20 words. I like to refer songs as poetic motion, lyrical poems.. Here's a little something i've been listening a lot to these days.

"You Give Me Something"

James Morrison

You only stay with me in the morning

You only hold me when I sleep

I was meant to tread the water

But now I've gotten in too deep

For every piece of me that wants you

Another piece backs away

You give me something

That makes me scared alright

This could benothing

But I'm willing to give it a try

Please give me something

Because someday I might know my heart

You only waited up for hours

Just to spend a little time alone with me

And I can say I've never bought you flowers

I can't work out what they mean

I never thought that I'd love someone

That was someone else's dream

You give me something

That makes me scared alright

This could be nothing

But I'm willing to give it a try

Please give me something

Because someday I might call you from my heart

But it might be a second too late

And the words that I could never say

Are gonna come out anyway

You give me something

That makes me scared alright

This could be nothing

But I'm willing to give it a try

Please give me something

You give me something

That makes me scared alright

This could be nothing

But I'm willing to give it a try

Please give me something

Because someday I might know my heart

Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart

Points to ponder ...

2006-09-30T21:48:00.000+08:00

Am at the point of my life where everything is so uncertain. Instead of love, ambiguity is in the air. Yesterday Mags asked a very good question. So what are your plans? There were deathly silence for a moment. Followed by a "I dont know" answer. I wish i could Google "what are my plans?", then a whole list of options and directions that i could follow would pop up. Where do i see myself doing 5 years from now? I dont know man. I dont even know what m i gonna do tomorrow. Hence i have crafted a seemingly impossible dream plan.

1) Graduate with a Bachelor of Commerce degree, majoring in International Business.

2) Immediately get job offers.

3) Work in a company that involves international export and trading/internationally based retail company.

4) Meet a GODLY man in one of my many business travels abroad.

5) The Godly man has to be:
a. GODLY
b. Tall (preferably 5ft 9' and above)
c. Preferably asian. Saves the problem of me trying to explain things to my family.
d. Humorous and not afraid to laugh out loud. (not afraid to cry as well)
e. Big. Not so fat but just big built.
f. Adore me!
g. Gets along fine with my gurl frens.
h. Be my help/guide/partner/best buddy/#1 fan, for as long as i live.
g. Someone that will hold my hand till we're both white haired, balding, toothless.
h. Someone that will take me for long rides without planning ahead where we will be going.

6) After going out for 2 yrs. Decides to get engaged.

7) Have a lawn wedding after 1 yr of being engaged. I want a massive chocolate wedding cake
with creme & raspberries in between the layers and the outer layer of the cake covered with fresh cherries and white chocolate gratings.

8) Build our careers together. Saving enough money to buy a piece of land in the suburbs by the beach as our vacation + retirement haven.

9) Maybe have one child. Wanna be a yummy mummy. Dont expect me to sit home to cook and clean.

10) Get a dog and name him Sammy.

That's as far as i wanna go. Sounds perfect isnt it? For now i can only accomplish #1. Hopefully i can. In need of guidance. As the days go by i'm slowly starting to panic. What m i gonna do? what m i gonna do? For once i'm actually wishing to prolong my studying years. I'm afraid to finish studying then what next? Climb the career ladders? But m afraid heights ... Sighs ... Lord show me the way ...

Royal Perth Hospital ...

2006-09-28T21:53:00.000+08:00

Went to the hospital today. No biggie really. Had a swollen right ankle and sharp pains. My paranoid thoughts of a gangrene build-up causing the doc to have to saw off my whole foot drove me to the hospital. The walk there is enough to cause a gangrene build-up really. But atleast i know where it is now. I'll take a bus next time. Took the little old lady's advice at the Perth City info center's advice to walk. "You can take a bus there. But you girls can walk. It's only 10 mins." Eh lady have u seen my foot? ask me to walk. SO anyways, walked there with Sherli. (THANK U!) And on the way there i spotted my first gay couple!! When i spotted them by brain went OMG OMG OMG OMG!! GAY GAY GAY GAY GAY!! EWWWWWW!!! They both had FINE physique oo la la. But they're gay. They were holding hands and totally oblivious to the stares that they were getting.

Okay enough about the gay couple. Back to moi. So went to the ER, got my procedures sorted out. It was a public hospital ok. But it was so private! Like the doctors are so kind, they look you in the eye and tell you a whole bunch of stuff about whats going on with you that you dont understand but just nod to. Got like 4 - 5 xrays done of me foot. In the end results came out saying that my foot is just fine. Torn some ligamens around that area. Gonna still be swelling and hurting for the next 1 week or so. Got a support band for the foot. So no cause for alarm.

That's all for today. Have to work tomorrow. So excited about our cell movie nite tomorrow and the little sleepover at Mag's place! We gonna be watching Dark Water. Then i will have to return to the hospital again but to the Phsycho Ward this time. Will have to take sleeping pills just to be able to sleep after the movie. But we're watching a comedy after that. Austin Powers - Goldmember! YAY! So will be posting about that soon...

TATA

5 Malaysians + 1 Japanese = Balls of Fun

2006-09-26T20:56:00.000+08:00

Aloha,

Today was an exceptionally sunny day. Wonderful for laundry, drying your baby/husband/mother-in-law, making beef jerky, tanning, and ofcourse PICNICING!! Went to Kings Park today with Racheal, Janice, Vinson, Kimberly and Hiro (kamekichi). Here's who brought what :-

Racheal + Vinson : Fruity Tutti Salad (No they didnt name it. I did)

Janice : Egg sandwich + Jemput-Jemput (some fried kuih la. Delish!) + Chips

Hiro : Avocado + Smoked Salmon Sushi

Me : A DELICIOUS potato salad

Everything was delish. This is what i like about this country. Acting like a total idiot and fool in the park doesn't draw a large crowd around you pointing fingers and whispering about your upbringing. And you can actually lie down on the grass and take a short nap .In Malaysia your whole back would be wet, and you would probably end up getting mugged or raped. Felt completely free from the burdens of my uni work and assignments today. Its just such a beautiful day! After the picnic and much frolicking in the sun, we took a bus to the city (free u know!). I got pulled into Hiro's impromptu decision to watch a movie. A scary one indeed.

Watched Monster House. It was really good to my surprise eventhough the characters were quite ugly. The story line was good and some scenes were quite thrilling. After the movie me, hiro and janice went for bubble tea in Utopia. Yummy yums ...

Now am exhausted, with a swollen foot thanks to the jumping around that i did which eventually made me land on the side of my foot. Gonne give myself a treat by going to bed early tonight. Have to work tomorrow morn sighs. I wish everyday could be like this one.

"Thank you Lord for giving me such a wonderful day!!"

SEARCH FOR A STAR PT 2 ...

2006-09-24T18:12:00.000+08:00

Heres part 2 of the pics. ENJOY!!

ME & Everyone that made the event an extra special one

(I love close up shots!)

ZION PRAISE HARVEST - SEARCH FOR A STAR 2006

SEARCH FOR A STAR ....

2006-09-24T15:57:00.000+08:00

Date: Saturday, 23rd September 2006
Venue: Winthrop Baptist Church
Event: SFAS 2006

Yesterday was the event that i've been practising for for the past 3 weeks plus plus i think. Even when assignments were flooding in and had high fever, cough, sore throat, lost my voice, still i pulled through for this event to happen. Eleh talk like i was a soloist like that. Was singing in a choir actually. But it was fantastic. Surprised myself by getting involved in something of this nature. I may look like an extreme extrovert but deeep deeeeep down inside i'm actually kinda shy. Need lotsa reassurance for a lot of things. I have no regrets joining this whatsoever. Met so many new ppl. Was truly a humbling experience. Its about serving and not being served. For once i was not thinking about myself, like would i sound good? would i embarras myself? It was about putting on the very best show for the audience to enjoy, putting on a terrific show to show the world that christians are NOT dull/half dead ppl that sways their body while humming hallelujah hallelujah .. We're a bunch of FUN ppl man!! The show started with Francis singing that Nick Lachey song. Sounded fantastic but then the crowd ruined the song. All i could hear was "WOOOO" "FRANCIS FRANCIS!!!!" urghh .. i wanna hear him sing la for petes sake. Next up was a ballet + hip hop dance. Choon weh. I can NVR dance like that. Only dance i can do is the belly dance cause when i hit my tummy the fats will all shake and i will automatically move. Hehe. Then we had our ZPH very own STOMP! consisting of pots, pans, water glasses, brooms and a rubber chicken that squeeks. Next was CHOIR!!!! we did a mini skit and sang somewhere over the rainbow, a moment like this and i believe i can fly. I was at the front row yay!! The rest of the acts were AWESOME! especially the dance. Took so many pictures i can dedicate a whole blog to it i tell u. But i compiled and categorized the pics into different segments. So free leh me. Cause next week is a HOLIDAY!!! Hurray! Sighs. Its actually a "holiday". Still have reports and bla bla stuff due. Craps. ENjoy the pics!

P/s: There is a 2nd part to the pics due to the restrictions that blogspot has on my pics uploading.

My Zion Praise Harvest Family

Another ridiculous piece of news ...

2006-09-11T16:13:00.000+08:00

I've posted several ridiculous news articles prior to this one but i think this is seriously the icing on the cake. This piece of news reminds me of what Pastor Jeff once said when he came to speak in our church. He said that sometimes our hearts meant well but our actions prove otherwise. The heart is correct but the brain (way of trying to convey your kind heartedness) is wrong.

Got this article from The Star online. Enjoy ...

Widower offers to marry ageing prostitutes
By R.S.N. MURALI

KUALA TERENGGANU: “I am willing to marry them.” This is the offer by a Kuantan widower to 10 ageing prostitutes here, one of whom is a great grandmother.

The 54-year-old man said he was prepared to take three or more of the prostitutes as his wives as he felt pity for them and wanted them to stop their flesh trade.

The man had written to several government agencies here expressing his intention after reading about the women's plight in a Malay tabloid.
The prostitutes from Kampung Tiong here, most of whom were in their mid 50s, were reported to be facing hard times due to dwindling “costumers” as many were already grandmothers.
The report had said the women were soliciting for “clients” from two houses in the town centre. They had been in the flesh trade for over two decades.
The widower expressed loneliness as his wife had passed away for sometime now and said he did not mind marrying the women.
He wanted them to give up their undesirable activities as they were all growing older and needed someone to care for them.
“I don’t care who they were previously. But if I marry them, they should be loyal to me alone and take good care of me as their husband,” he stressed.
The man pledged to provide shelter, food and clothing to the women and treat them equally if they were willing to be his companions.
“They can look after my welfare and cook for me. We can all live happily ever after,” he added.

State Islam Hadhari and Welfare Committee chairman Datuk Rosal Wahid said they had no objection if the man was sincere in his proposal.
“No one can stop him if he does not mind the women's past and is willing to accept them,” he said yesterday.
Rosal added that the state government had on numerous occasions attempted to counsel these women, hoping that they would stop their activities but to no avail.
“My only word of advice is that the man should be sincere in his offer. He should, however, not be overzealous and just marry one woman first.”

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I'm in the computer lab as i'm writing this and i just cant help laughing at this piece of junk news. I'm not trying to be mean. I'm sure this man meant well by providing for these women. Someone has to take care of them. Hey! Why not him? HEllo!!!! You could provide for them by either building them a shelter or giving them donations isnt it? No no.. Marry them all, keep them in the small/medium sized house of yours, make them fight to their death for your attention/company, and make them cook and clean after you????????? Them living happily ever after??? What he thinks that marrying all of these ladies all at once is a fairytale come true? He thinks this is the modern tale of a Prince Charming (?) rescuing the damselSS in distress in the village of the damned and saving them from dwindling economy is it? "Oh those damselSSS needs my help! I shall sweep THEM off THEIR feet and carry them all onboard my mighty steed and we shall ride off in the sunset towards my castle on the hill!" Use your brain use your brain!!!! You think cheap r financing all these women and they have grandchildren and children somemore. You wanna end up on one of the series of NONA discussing the woe of your family and end up asking for donations from the public???? "help me and my LARGE extended family. I had to marry them to rescue them from their flesh trading ways. Now 3 of them just agve birth and I have no money to feed all of them. Pls help by donating money, diapers etc etc ..."

Good intentions? I DONT THINK SO!!

Sorry if i sounded mean and cruel on this one. I "MEANT WELL"

Complete Silence for 40 hours ...

2006-08-21T10:52:00.000+08:00

You might find it strange because Amanda Liew and total silence/not making noise at all does NOT go together. I'm just the kinda person that just wont shut up. I have decided to not speak at all or to IM at all for 40 hours starting on Friday - 8pm till Sunday - 12 pm.

"Has she nothing better to do" did i hear you say? It's all for a worthy cause i assure you. My church - Zion Praise Harvest has just participated in a World Vision Australia programme called the 40 Hour Famine. Click on the blue words for more information. I dont know how to explain this but there are several ways in which you can partipate. When you sign up, you'll be given a booklet with some forms in it and receipt as well. Will have to fill in the particulars of the person donating to this cause and they will be given a receipt as well. So you can either,

1) Go without FOOD for 40 hrs - The children in places like East Timor, Mozambigue, Tanzania and Zambia go without food for more than 40 hours sometimes.

2) Go without TECHNOLOGY for 40 hrs - Needless to say most of them have not even heard of what the Internet is, what a computer looks like or will ever get the chance to lay hands on PS 2 controller.

3) Go without FURNITURE for 40 hrs - The only furniture that most of them have is probably a worn and tattered piece of mat on the barren ground.

4) Or come up with something creative

Therefore I have decided to go without TALKING for 40 hrs. Cant go without food because of the recent return of my gastritis, tech cannot cause of my darn assignments and furniture needless to say cannot. I know it may not sound reasonable or even worthwhile at all by going without words. But i've read the Blender forum and someone said something that made sense to my seemingly worthless mission. When a child has gone without food for more than 20 hours, and is so weak he/she can barely walk, will he/she go on chattering about how hungry he/she is? At some point you get so weak you wont even have the strength to utter a word.

I'm the kind of person that if given the right circumstances and the right person to talk to can go ON talking for 40 hrs. And i hope to correct my habit in the process. I tend to get very critical of a person or something if i feel that does not suit my taste. This is a better phrase for my existing condition. The not so good phrase is AKA Bad Mouthing.

I'm not gonna go on explaining that what i'm doing is going to be a reflective exercise of cleansing my inner spirit and give me a renewed attitude to ... la di da di da ... All I want to do is to help raise money for those children and their families and I want to see that the children get fed and are able to do what children are suppose to do everyday. They should be running wild and playing around and annoying their parents., not going into the fields to look for food, not going up to some mud infested waters for water supply, not having to watch their siblings die from malnutrition and starvation.

I hope there are people out there that supports my course of action. Wont be blogging for awhile now. Gotta go raise some money!

Toorah'

Every Employer's Headache ...

2006-08-19T22:17:00.000+08:00

The headache of every employers as mentioned form the title is ofcourse the ultimate demolition duo/ the evil twins/ the dasdarty duo/ the menace sisters/ the twin tower of supreme evil/ the twin terror/ the mischief sisters .... You can call me and sherli whichever name you wish from the listed above. No employer would ever want us working in the same shift together. Ofcourse our sweet and lovely boss didnt know that to begin with. Me and my evil sista' had the night shift today. Worked from 3 - 9pm. "Worked". Our boss didnt come in during the whole time. Mua ha ha. So naturally when there is a slow stream of customers, we get bored, and when we get bored . . . . . . We get Mischievious ...... Yes yes we do ..... So what should i begin with? The karaoke session? The "Aku-ka-ra-ca" dance session? or the photo taking session? hahahha... yes we did all that. Couldnt help it. The boss's fault for putting a stereo in the shop. And so happens at that moment they played the song "La Bamba". And we just arranged this cute koala noise maker thinghies. So it was our "Cha chas" and we did the crazy dance in the shop. It was SO boring ok. We even bought bubble tea and chips. Ate n talked. We even took some of the items of the shop to fiddle with. Call us immature but having fun is suppose to make us all look younger ok. Got research to back me up so dont play play man.

Here are some evidence that we actually fooled around the shop and not worked hahaha. Oh dear. Dont tell me boss ok? Hushhhhhh .....

The crazy "Aku-ka-ra-cha" dance session. Cap - AUD6.95; Koala shakers - AUD8.95; The beautiful dancing maiden - Priceless

Massive wombat - AUD99.95

I dont even wanna know why they sell these kinda souvenirs in shops. Mine are Hooters i think. Hahaha

So as you can see I'm very blessed with such a job. And i got paid AUD50 today for working 6 hrs. Hehehe. AMEN!! God is SO GOOD!

I have even more looney pictures actually but then Blogspot wouldnt let me upload anymore. It shall be in my post i guess.

Gotta finish up my assignments now.

Toorah!

Fish, Prison, Tea

2006-08-14T12:18:00.000+08:00

No I'm not drunk. If i were drunk you wouldnt have been able to decipher whatever i was writing. The 3 words had to do with my cell outting last night. No we didnt illegally catch fish/caught a fish and put it in a police man's pants and then got sent to prison and then a friendly guard gave us some tea to warm ourselves.

For our cell outting we went to Fremantle for fish and chips in Cicerello's. Yummmmmmmm ... They have the most amazing fish and chips ever. Pls la Malaysian places like Long John Silver, Manhattan fish market, etc, All can go bankrupt if Cicerello's decided to branch out to KL. Our lovely driver Edwin drove us there. And he just got Saved on Saturday!!!!! HIP HIP HURRAY!!! The whole journey there was filled with phone calls asking for directions. But when we finally got there it was freezing and we had to sit outside on the docks for our meal because it was full inside the retaurant. But the food was Great, company was good and the view was amazing so what the heck about the cold la. Me and Sherli shared a large Seafood Chowder - AUD14.50 and a Fish and Chips - AUD 10.50. The fish and chips were large enough to feed 2 starving girls ok. Was ready to drop dead and leave a happy corpse behind by the time i was halfway through the meal.

After dinner some people in the group decided that it was a "good" idea to visit the Fremantle Prison since we're in the area. Its like Pudu jail la. No prisoners are currently reciding there. Although there are stories of "ex-prisoners" still living there. We're not talking about flesh and blood homo sapiens ok. They say there are noises when you walk through the place. Another friend told me that once her friends went there and all the cameras in the group didnt work when they went in. I thought all was crappy balogney. I didnt mind going or not really. Greater is Christ that is in Me than he that's of the world!! AMEN!! (sorry if its wrong. my bible quotations also not that good. But the main thing i wanna say is that i have faith la ok).

So all went but all got lost except for some. Sighs. Needless to say we were lost. Took almost 15 mins just to figure out where we were going. Whenw e finally reached there, guess what? It was Closed!!! It was so funny ok. So someone suggested that we should all go for Bubble Tea instead. So all went to the city. So now you see how it all connects. Oh well.. Wasn;t all a waste. Atleast i had real good bubble tea. Went to a place called Tea Fusion in the tiny Chinatown in Northbridge. Had Honeydew Bubble Tea - AUD3.50. I usually dont order the "pearls". I go for pudding or jelly but then i just went ahead and ordered it last nite. It was totally different from those in KL! In KL the 'pearls' are very hard and chewy n hard to swallow. But the ones here was delish! Tasted a lot like honey and it was soft n gooey. Loved it! Georgement started cracking so many jokes and we just laughed and laughed. The conversation involved a lot of fake indian accents and Bollywood stories.

After that all went home full and happy.

The End

Hard Core Confessions ...

2006-08-12T22:16:00.000+08:00

No i'm not going to write about some kinky fantasies/habits of mine eventhough judging by the title it may seem so. I have a lot of stuff to get off my chest.

These are one of the many nights that i've felt very burdened. I feel so heavy. Like I have so much upon myself. I'm just so so so so tired. Tired of thinking for other people, tired of comforting other people, tired of trying to hard to please other people, tired from putting smiles on other peoples faces ... I'm not complaining but I'm just so tired from putting others before myself. It may seem selfish for me to say so but that's how i really feel. Been wearing a mask on my face for such a long time i've forgotten how I look like or how I really should be looking like anymore. The only time i find real peace and lighter is when I'm doing my Quiet Time and when I praise and worship in church. Just now Ps Jeff spoke on finding your own talent and not envying others. That is an area i felt hardest to overcome. I;ve been trying to find my hidden talent for so long am beginning to wonder whether i have any at all. I've never been able to succeed in whatever i do. So what is my talent really? I dont know. People tell me that i'm able to make them feel at ease when they're with me and that i make them laugh. So what have i been doing? Have i been putting on a mini circus or clown act for others to laugh at and point at? Am I making myself look like the court jester so that others wont feel so? I'm really confused at this point.

I know my problems aren't major and actually it isnt even worth mentioning but i just need to get it out. Am just so overwhelmed at everything that's happening. My bestest friend ever leaving to another country and i may not see her for yrs to come, having to juggle a job and study at the same time, not knowing what my future is, etc etc etc ..... Maybe i'm just being a whiny-ninny-poo. But i cant help it. It's like the song by Alanis Morrisette - Ironic. "It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife ... It's like meeting the man of your dreams and meeting his beautiful wife .. Isn't it ironic ... " I feel so blessed but at the same time so burdened. I dont know how to explain my current situation. I just need someone that i can lie my head on and let out a loud wail and have him pat my back and say that everything will be alright. Someone to make sure I remember to eat, someone to comfort me when things go wrong, someone to take care of me. That's not too much to ask for isn't it? Maybe it is ... Maybe i feed solely off the happiness of others. I'm parasitic now aren't I.

Lord please give me rest. I'm so tired God, from meeting the expectations of others. Lord let me be myself and yet be accepted by others ... Lord be with me ... Sustain me so that i can have the strength to sustain others ...

Rude Awakening ...

2006-08-11T17:35:00.000+08:00

What has happen to mankind? What have we done to live in this ever degrading society? Are people not learning manners and courtesy at home anymore? Today i was working in the morning. Oh ya i've forgotten to post that I'm now working in a souvenir shop in the Perth CBD. So everything was peaceful this morning, Linda my boss was doing the accounts, her Very adorable son, Samuel was playing with his dad, customers was doing some browsing round and I was price tagging some items. The out of no where there this woman starting shouting at the top of her lungs outside of our shop. She was riding on a scooter and she stopped right outside our shop while waving the Australian flag. She was shouting "OI! IF YOU CANT EVEN HANG THE AUSTRALIAN FLAG PROPERLY THEN DONT COME INTO THE COUNTRY!!! BLOODY BUGGERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" And she kept repeating that while waving her tiny aussie flag from her scooter. It was quite a sight. What happened was that my boss hung the aussie flag the wrong way. From inside the shop it looked fine but from the outside it was the other way round. Talk about patriotism. She is very patriotic considering she isnt the owner the country. She is just like me an immigrant to the country she calls her own. Aboriginals own Australia not you, you caucasian woman you. Correct me if i'm wrong on this. But it was clearly seen that a little kid was present in the midst of her swearing. Has she no shame in swearing in front of a kid? What is wrong with this kinda people? What kind of family have they been brought up in? I do say quite colorful words sometimes but NEVER in the presence of children or old people.

That woman ought to be ashamed of herself.

Tsk tsk tsk ....

Eve, The Apple of My Eye

2006-08-07T11:30:00.000+08:00

Eve, The Apple of My Eye

Bell x1

You left it, I sent it

I want it back

You left it, I sent it

I want it back

If I had you here, I'd clip your wings

Snap you up and leave you sprawling on my pin

This plan of mine is oh so very lame

Can't you see the grass is greener where it rains

You left, I died,

I went and you cried

You came, I think

But I never really know

I've served my time

I've watched you climb

The wrong incline

But what do I know

Accept it, Don't let it

Turn the screw

Accept it, And let it

Scream back at you

Now this applies both equally to you and I

The only thing we share

Is the same sky

These empty metaphors

They're all in vain

Like can't you see the grass is greener where it rains

In the garden Snake was a charmin'

And Eve said let's give it a try

Now lead us not into temptation

But no matter how hard I try

When in the garden and

Snake is a charmin'

And Eve says let's give it a try

Eve is the apple of my eye

And I lie behind you

And a cradle you in the palm of me

And I pat your hair down

I think will we sink or swim?

'Cause we could do either on a whim

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Fondue-licious !!!

2006-07-24T12:00:00.000+08:00

The tale of a glutton continues .....

Last night my very good friend Calvin took me out for FONDUE! Went and ate in The Fondue House. Was keen on trying it for a very long time so I finally got the chance last nite. Have always thought bout the Swedish people sitting in their snow lodge, overlooking the alps, after a tiring yodeling session, they would sit in their balconies with a big pot of melted cheese and a basket of bread. Thats my idea of Fondue. But then it wasnt like that at all. One big reason being that Malaysia does not snow silly! hahaha .. (sorry for the utmost lameness. must be the overload of cheese in my system now)

So we ordered enough for 4 people. Didnt how big the portion would be till we saw it.

Menu:

Main course

~ Chicken cheese fondue accompanied with a basket of bread, breadsticks and crackers and breadcrumbed chicken (wine added)

Desert

~ Whiskey chocolate fondue accompanied with a plate of mixed fruits and assorted sprinkles

The main course was too filling for me. The gigantic amount of cheese that i've had. Oh my..
But the desert was delicious!!! So delicious its almost a sin to be eatting so much of it. There wasnt much of a whiskey taste but the smell oh my .. *faints*

Here are some pictures from my yummy meal. Too bad the technology does not permit a scratch and sniff computer screen or else you guys can atleast smell what i ate. Mua ha ha ha

The Fondue House

The main course. Look at all the bubbly cheese!

The Glutton doing what she was born to do

Genting ~ Pictorial Fiesta

2006-07-20T19:07:00.000+08:00

Beautiful view

First World Hotel

Enjoying the cool air

The reason why my previous post was entitled Around the world (almost) in 1 day

I was in the US! Just kidding. Lady Liberty in Gentings

Me in front of Genting's version of the Eiffel Tower

The Big Ben

Was at the Oscars too!

Other interesting pictures .... Have to be continued in the next post. This @$%#% thing is not letting me insert more pics inside .... to be continued ....

Around (almost) the world in 1 day ...

2006-07-20T11:13:00.000+08:00

How on earth is it possible to visit Paris, England, USA and the Middle East in a day's time? There is only one place in Malaysia that makes that possible for "Jet Laggers" (As oppose to Jet Setters) like me. The place? Genting Highlands ofcourse. Travelled all the way up there on winding roads in an EXPRESS bus yesterday. When i say Express, its seriously express. No joke! The bus driver took about 45 minutes to get up there. The Skyway (cable car) was closed for maintainance so the bus had to take us all the way up. Thank God it was closed. The last time i was in a cable car in Langkawi i cried all the way up and all the way down. Its just a little phobia i have about falling to my death. Anyone knows what that's called then tell me la hah. The bus driver was insanely insane (hmm.. that didnt make sense). He was racing with another bus driver and cursing the other driver and other drivers on the road because of their slacky ways on the road. Pls bear in mind that the roads were VERY narrow and curvy and its going uphill. The only thing breaking my fall if the bus ever tumbles down the hill into the forests would be a branch in the middle of my crotch. That is if i survive the fall from the bus. Was praying all the way up. Thank God im alive to be writing this.

I was starved when i got up there. Havent had bfast or lunch yet. We ended up having lunch that costs nearly rm50. Nutz ok. All food are more exp in Gentings. After that we bought the Senang Lenang theme park entrance tickets. Thats entitle us to a max of 6 family rides. Family rides includes rides that the elderly and very young children can sit on. So therefore you know how "exciting" they were. But i'm not complaining. I dont wanna go up to Gentings and die there of a massive heart attack or brain hemorrhage. I still had fun. However it started raining when me and my friend was boating. Its one of those cycling boat thinghies. We barely cycled for 5 mins and it started pouring. I dont know whether it was a blessing or a curse cause i was having SO much fun but my knees nearly collapsed. It was sheer human strength that enabled us to pedal all the way back to the docks. It poured and poured after that. Only managed to go to Dinosourland during the pour. Its some park with some dino figures la. It had a suspension bridge too. A short one.
Rain + Slippery floor boards + a girl having a phobia of falling to her death = A very coaxing friend having to endure the drama of the phobic girl crying before she stepped on the bridge and all the way accross.
The phobic girl was me. And yes i did cry all the way across.

After that we went to SnowWorld but the next sessions doesnt start till the next hr. So we got our tickets (rm17) and headed to the casino. Just for a visit dont worry. I never believe that gambling is the key to all the fortunes in the world. As we entered the Encik Police asked me for my ID. I was SO flattered. I actually looked young! WOO HOO! He must not have noticed my very matured boobs. hehe. I nearly fainted in the casino. I was not the one betting but i felt my heart palpitating as the banker took away the gambler's chips. Went through all of the tables. The most Kan cheong was the Black Jack tables. It was crazy! Old uncles yelling and aunties swearing. The money being exchanged during the game nuts! I have never seen so much cash in one go in my life! Rm1000 going just like that. Its too much for simple mind to even think about. Rm1000 i can buy so many stuff! But enough about that. No wonder the suicide rates in Genting itself is high. Losing all your money at one go can be pretty distressing. I hope that branch in between the crotch method saves them when they throw themselves over the cliff. Hey losing the ability to bear children is better than losing your life right?

So after that drama we went to SnowWorld!! It was loads of fun! I havent seen snow b4 in my entire life eventhough i was in Aussie. I seen and touched snow in Gentings!! It was round -4C in that place. We were given jackets and gloves which stank and was wet but i didnt mind. Immediatly when we stepped in our breath came out in vapors. COoool! Then i dont know what took over me, Maybe its too much excitement at one go or the snow was too much for me to handle or the brain froze or its just sheer joy, I ran round the place like a little kid. I scooped up snow and threw a generous amount on my friend and i even went few rounds down the kiddies slide. But the ultimate was the giganto slide. Ok i dont know what its called but it involves a float and a massive curvy slide. It was worth the climb all the way to the top. Went sliding down the thing at high speeds. WEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

My butt was numb after that, my jeans was cold and wet, my new Puma shoes was wet and soggy but i didnt mind at all!! It took a while for my butt to thaw. Amanda very happy! We decided not to waste our tickets so we headed out to the outdoor theme park again. It was pouring even heavier. Craps. After it has subsided we went boating again. Except that i fell heavily on the way there.
Rain + Slippery floor boards + a fat girl = A very thunderous fall and a large bruise on her ass now. OUCH. It still hurts like mad now. Pls pray for my butt.

Thats about it for my adventures in Genting. Took a lot of pictures. Will dedicate a whole post on its later. Have to go for now. My mom wants to go out.

Laters!!