Confessions of an Idllyic Mind

Hello folks,

Gosh its been really that long since I've updated anything here. Compared to my random kadoodlings when I'm back in Perth, I'm really lacking behind. Maybe it's because life has finally settled into the comfortable stage where everything becomes mundane and utterly repetitive. Well there are some flashes of thunder here and there but nothing really major has been going on. Oh noticed the many changes of my blog template? That's cause I can never find one I wanna stick to. The old dottie dottie one was making me quite ill whenever i look at it too long. So what is there is ramble about? Work has been great. I can truly say I have not have the slightest hint of regret the since the very last step i took of AmBank (my previous employment). I just love my current. It takes a lot to say that you love your job but yeah i can proudly say i do. Sure i put in more than 12 hours into my job sometimes but i dont mind it at all. Reports? Bring it on. Articles? Bring it on. I cannot imagine not doing any of it. Have to keep my overactive mind constantly running or else i would suffer from brain-rot. Personal life? Found that special someone I can finally talk to without having to do translation work or hide what i really feel. Someone that finishes off my sentences for me and challenges me every waking moment of the day. Well he does cause me a few heartaches and headaches here and there but what to do? This kinda shit happens when you give your heart away without giving it much thought. Family? Everything is alright. Not too pleased that my bro will be flying off to Brisbane soon. Now its 2 against 1 very soon. My closest ally whenever i need to gang up on the parents will be gone soon. Sighs. But I am excited cause i might get to go too. For holiday purposes.

So thats about it. Oh went to Genting recently. Shall post some pics from the trip soon.

Off to bed now. Peace out.

PUBLISHED FINALLY! ! ! ! !

Never in my wildest fantasies (trust me, they get pretty wild sometimes. Pretty wild.) would I ever imagine that something I wrote would ever be published, let alone nationally. Eventhough its a short and simple article but hey! its out baby! Praise God! It just took my breath away the second i opened the papers and I see the article there. Well it did needed editing and correction but just seeing it there gave me this sense of achievement that is totally indescribable .. Awesome Awesome ... Well it certainly gave me the confidence to continue on with the short novel I'm working on.

To those who missed it, the article was published on Wednesday, 30 January 2008, in the New Straits Times under Streets ..

Sometimes there is so much that a song can tell you. If one is an avid reader of my blog one would know that I dont do much of poetry but i really dig lyrics. I just wish i can find someone that appreciates it as much as i do. I just found this song from Billy Joel and I realize that its 100% applicable to my life. I'm trying really trying so hard to carve a slice of the pie of life for myself in this world i have no idea what its leading me to. But i can say I am finally happy right now. My job is actually bringing me somewhere. I am working my ass off but I am happy. I work 14 hours sometimes but hey I am happy. To that person out there that is waiting for me to fall on my ass so that the person can laugh and poke fun at me and say tah i made a wrong choice and that I will regret my actions, listen and listen to me good, I am happy and i sleep like a baby not only at night but in my weekend afternoon naps as well. I am at peace and I am still trying to succeed. Atleast I am young and I am not afraid to fail.

During times like these I wish my ex is by my side now. I rarely or never do talk about him in my blog but he is the one person i should have appreciated more. He was always there to hold me and stroke my hair and tell me that things will be alright eventhough i soak his expensive shirts with tears and nose goo. Yeah i still hate his guts for dumping me but I wish he was here now. Oh well .. its time to toughen up, look up for charge forward to face the future! Things will be alright. It will be.

Vienna
Billy Joel

Slow down, you crazy child
you're so ambitious for a juvenile
But then if you're so smart, tell me
Why are you still so afraid?

Where's the fire, what's the hurry about?
You'd better cool it off before you burn it out
You've got so much to do and
Only so many hours in a day

But you know that when the truth is told..
That you can get what you want or you get old
You're gonna kick off before you even
Get halfway through
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you're doing fine
You can't be everything you want to be
Before your time
Although it's so romantic on the borderline tonight
Tonight,...
Too bad but it's the life you lead
you're so ahead of yourself that you forgot what you need
Though you can see when you're wrong, you know
You can't always see when you're right. you're right

You've got your passion, you've got your pride
but don't you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on, but don't imagine they'll all come true
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

Slow down, you crazy child
and take the phone off the hook and disappear for awhile
it's all right, you can afford to lose a day or two
When will you realize,..Vienna waits for you?
And you know that when the truth is told
that you can get what you want or you can just get old
You're gonna kick off before you even get half through
Why don't you realize,. Vienna waits for you
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?

I can finally strike off one item from my resolution list!!! It came as such a surprise so much so I'm still in a daze now. I can just stare at it and I know I'm suppose to charge it now but I just enjoy looking at it so much i can't bring myself to leave it upstairs charging while I'm downstairs. I need to see it, gaze upon it's wondrous features, savor on its texture, mull over its wonderfulness, the monstrosity of its splendour, the gloriousness of its presence .... I can go on and on. I finally got myself a camera!! The one from Sony that the ex-bf got me has gone kaput. So new camera new beginnings right? I guess its the independence that hit me really hard. I'm just so blessed with the ability to get things on me own now. The money came entirely out of my salary and Not partially subsidized from daddy. Arghhhh ... ITS GORGEOUS! I can't wait to snap snap snap snap SNAP with it. This coming weekend would be perfect cause I'm going off on a team building trip with my colleagues. Hurray!

Check out my baby. Canon Ixus 75



Isn't she lovely~ Isn't she wonderful ......

Its 2008! Its frightening how the year just jumps and takes a leap on me. Its just overwhelming to think that I'm not freezing my ass off in a koala and ill mannered aboriginals native country anymore. No more being afraid to put my bare ass on the toilet seat in winter, no more swatting flies in summer, no more having to put up with Gloria Jeans, no more having to gage what my smelly+old+loud Macedonian landlord has to say, no more eating shanghai noodles with miso soup and cabbage for dinner, no more getting rid of books to get to bed/getting rid of books to get out of bed/getting rid of books to sit on my chair/getting rid of books from table to put the laptop during exam period, no more shaking the antique washing machine to get the dryer to start spinning, and the best bit, no more moths in spring!!!!! Yeah life out of Perth is that good. But i do miss that place somehow. Did stuff there that I would never ever forget or do again. Had my hair dyed there for the very first time (thanks sherli) and many more.. Ahhh ... memories ... Just wanna take this time to thank everyone in my 2007 life that made the year great for me.

A lot happened in the span of a year. I lost an uncle. Lost some friendship that i will never try to rekindle again. Quit a job. Lost total respect for someone that i think is a old pervert now. Gained a stronger bond with my girlies. Gained more self confidence. Bought a car. Bought my own wardrobe. Joined a MNC and having a job that is fulfilling, achieving career goals set out for myself and still bring true to myself. Just wanna thank God for continuously blessing me even though i dont deserve it at times. I know my stay here on earth is just a temporary visit but i want to make the most out of it while i'm here. Here are some things i want to atleast start achieving for the year of 2008 and beyond.

1. Buy a camera. Looking at Canon Ixus. Can i get some feedback from camera savvy people pls?
   
2. Gain more experience from work.
   
3. Travel to 2 major cities in the world. Shanghai & Dubai, here i come!!!!! (to be accomplished within a few yrs span)
4. Lose 5 kgs (to be accomplished ASAP!! Gonna be living on lettuce and Diet Coke). Gotta lose enough to wear my very first bikini!
   
5. Build up my faith level.
   
6. Write a short story. So excited! Gonna start work on it soon even though i have no clue what to write. But i'm gonna start!!
   
7. Meet someone that will take care of me (to be accomplished when the right one comes along)
8. Start a concrete financial/investment plan.